LAST DAY of 2010

2011 is coming ......

today is 31st dec 2010
last day in 2010 ...

recall my days in 2010 ,
time flies swiftly
pmr year especially
busy wit studies
curriculum
prs
pps
everything ..

piles n piles of homeworks
packed schedule of tuitions
really busy
without realising time had gone so fast

and now
pmr had over
i really miss the days just after pmr
where i can play and enjoy maself
where i can choose to go to sch or not
where i can go outing wit frens , clasmates
haiz ~

i want pmr again :)
then i can enjoy free days again
hahahaha
how nice it is, rite ?

nex year would be a tough year
goin to face new subjects
goin to face new people
old school ,
but gota adapt wit new situations, new rules

prepare for orientation
confident for exams
fuuuh !
i must say
I CAN DO IT !

be happy and ready ,
as u say :
happy-go-lucky = )
i will remember tat !

forget unlucky days in 201o
and lets be 2011 a lucky year


let by gone be by gone
YinG~21#

That should be Me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreadin' bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me,
Does she love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe that
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
It's working cause you know that

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe that
that should be me

(Holding your hand)
That should be me
(The one making you laugh (oh baby oh))
That should be me

That should be me
(Giving you flowers)
That should be me
(Talking for hours)
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me

* Edited -- the song " that should be me "


I remember the time u hold my hands, make me laugh
I remember u said buying me gifts
U said u will give me flowers
shud it be u who talk hours wit me ?

Where is it ?
its all a fake promise
u're not responsible
or did i misunderstood u ?
no idea

tis is so sad
u broke my heart
where's my answer ?
i've been waiting 4 it
u gave a lame excuse
n i noe u're tryin to escape

I dont need answer now
coz i know wat u think
n wats in ur heart
and so
im goin to leave u
im will pull myself frm u
i cant go on like tis

u're the right tea
though u're not as handsome
but u're ..
good as wat i can say

now
im goin to giv up my tea
where we've to queue for hours to buy it
i rather dont try it
than waiting there foolishly

im not in ur eyes, neither in ur heart
i cant replace ur 1st her,
and even couldnt beat ur 2nd her
im the last of the last
though u thought bout me
but not only me
i want to be the one n only
since u cant do it
so i wana blow the whistle
stop now
its game over

im honest in everything
i didnt deny u're not
n u're better than others when u giv reasons before escaping frm my ques
but wat i wana say ,
dont be afraid ,
dont afraid ...
hurt is a must
but i will be better in time
surely will
:)


That should be me
YinG~21#

Secret of hyacinth

Im a glass
therefore my appearance is invisible
same as for u

Im just temporary replacement for u
im just her or her replacement
tis is not i wanted to be

I know im not da lime light
when u doesnt look at me
when u doesnt crave for my appearance
when u doesnt take courage for textin me
when u leave me every nite
when u didnt keep a single msg of mine
Why is tis ?
u kept her msg ..
i wonder if ur inbox is always empty ?

I wait for ur msg every single day
but im the one who started every msg
sorry for being unmanner..

Like wat u noe, i really like u
and i meant it
im not the one who wish u first
im not ur first
but i hope im ur last

u make me one less lonely girl
but u doesnt make me one lucky gurl
I want a daily report frm u
but u doesnt think of doin any

U said she forgot u
at the same time
i noe u r meaning,
u still likes her, right ?

at ur right hand is her
and ur left hand is me ?
deyh , im not a fool !

all ur sweet words is just a fool
u're tryin to poison me huh ?
if u doesnt meant it, dont say !
dont make me feel lonely
dont make me feel angry
dont make me hard to lose u

come on !
tell me wat u want
tell me wat u think
i noe u confuse of urself though

i wan companion, not separation

As the secret of hyacinth says
to make the hyacinth flower to blossom for the 2nd time,
cut off the leaves..
cut the leaves off means forget the past
n prepare for the blossom
can u do tat ?
idk


Hyacinth
Jay-b
YinG~21#

A Post To Rachel

i've been missing at here for a long time dy~

and the 1st post im going to post when i'm back is to talk about 2 guys?!

hope my girls..u all wont mind.. =)

ah Rachel..

honestly , when i first saw your blog i felt surprise..

I mean..i dont know thing goes on like this..

i thought u like Irwin n Chris..n so on?

And what i know bout them is only they are 2 boys that very talented in guitar~

but..

i dont even talk to them face to face before..

Even though we had joined the same camp at November..

but we dint speak to each other at all wor..

all i know about them is that "Oh , this 2 guys are the guitarist!" during PnW time..

then continue sing sing sing..dint realize they're from ur church also..

btw , i believe u had a great time when outing with them..

but i dont think i know him as much as you do..right??

what i feel glad about is that 2 of them are christian!

oh my mum always wanted me to make more chritian frens~

but bout Love leh.at this time i wan 保持沉默~

now is not the right time~ haha!

they said when u are with your love one..

you will feel like u're on top of the world..

how bout others' sights ?! Who cares!!!xD haha

and i know it's the feeling when ur with them..

i think they will be a good friend of u and me..

but i think i can only meet them at next year NSCFL camp la~xDD haha

so make sure u jon next year..

and have fun with the next outing with them ya!!

and thx alot for ur sharing~

sharing ur secrets with me = u care bout me...

cuz sharing is caring ma~~ haha

thanx alot for trusting me ya!!

haha kla..think im gonna bit gudbye here~

38gang..school's going to reopen?

hows u all's feeling??

me very nervous and abit mm seh dak my holiday!!

1st day of scul we have to decide our stream le..

i dont wanna seperate wit u all..

Manda going to Acc class..

den chai shift dy~ haiz

n btw she's going to JB today dy..everyone say gudbye to her =)

bless her 一路顺风~ =)

and scul starts we going to busy with orientation..

hope we'll have fun during the time la !!

kla..see i ngam charm again liao..

haiyoyo..reli x tahan me..haha..kla

TATA~~~~ =D

Ah Peh~ =)

msg to ah peh

ah peh..u noe what?
i start loving to share my secret wit u..
i will alwis wan u to noe 1st abt me..
ex: 'HIM' , irwin, christoper n the others..
bt ofcoz, irwin is the most i talk wit u..
n when ever i saw irwin,it make me think of u ..

n abt HIM ..i din noe that u have relize sumthing abt her..
although its abit hurt bt its alrite..
i have told myself 2011 its a new year ..
i have to reli work for it..
love? i had enough love from GOD .. or myb more than enough..
so y must i need other ppl's love? (i mean couple tat kind of love)
n im sure tat 'ppl's love' wont last long..so y must i suffer of it?
i should resive love from GOD n give love to others..
GOD noe's me the best..
n i trust in him tat he will find a suttable guy for me in future..

okey finish abt love..
nw..abt irwin..i noe u r waiting for it ryte? lol..
i dono how to say bt irwin is a very nice guy u noe..
ytd we went to out n we had a great time..
haha..he talks alot, theres not such word as boring when im with him..
he tells alot of jokes too..he will make sure tat u laugh..lol..
n you noe what!!!!!
i ask him ' seriously, u like her ar?'
u noe what he say??!!
' abit lar ' SHOCK O.o
hahaha..ntg to say d lar..
then after i finish asking tat question he start he ask more abt u..
lyk what ppl r u lar..me n u r good friends ant lar..y i din bring u here lar..zzzzzzz
AH peh!!!! ISH...hahahaha..
then ltr christoper oso start asking ad..
he say ' who? tat ah peh ah? '
lol..then they two start saying ' ah peh talk abt who more?? '
' ofcoz irwin lar..bt she say christoper more leng zai..' lol..happy lar him
suddently u so popular ad in our church..
did u noe tat they 2 very popular de in our church..
nw all the gurl thirst to noe u ad..
lol...jealous dao!!!..

i cant stop talking abt him lar..theres so much more tat u need to noe..



-rachel-

Frust of idiots ?

I saw jane wrote tat she's frustrate over idiots in fbook ..
i wanted to post something like tis in blog here earlier
but doesnt really know how to say n express
after look at wat jane post in fb
i think i know how to write tis post ady

Actually i hav almost same condition as jane
but not really "frust" of "idiots"
mayb mine is some kind of jealousy, hatred
those 3 + 1 gurls
duh ~
they get str8 a's man !
and i shud be happy actually

I know its actually myself who giv me da unpleasant feelings
im the one who think too much n so on
its absolutely not good, i know !
so im tryin 2 eliminate all these
i shud like them although they scored
i shudn't be so selfish
selfish is a self-destroyer !
rawrrr !!


Being a better person
YinG~21#

A B C

U're occupying me
i feel tat i cant resist myself from u
especially after takin pmr results
it feel like
i've accepted ..

we both nervous n afraid
we both crack our head
i went to sch n u greet me
seeing u walkin to me
i dunno wat can i say

pn cik zainun told us 28 str8 a's
and one of them is the sweet person
she again ?
y she keep appearing in my life
even her name also
haih ~
not feeling good

SHE get full a's ?
oh my ...
y everyone tat i wana stay off get 8 a's huh ?
but its alrite
she's my fren
though impleasant wit her
but she pass wit flying colours i shud be happy :)

the feeling after takin pmr results is indeed very bad
i just cant smile or laugh
and doesnt feel like talkin to anybody
just wana stay alone

during tis period of time,
i gotta hav u by my side
in tis time i really find u important
i really want ur comfort n console
but u couldn't help me
tis time u couldn't make me smile :(
its alrite .. u dont hav 2 apologise
i understand
bcz u gota save urself as well
merely ur accompany meant alot to me

u gona leave me to somewhere else
then leave me again n again
i will support u
n we'll be in each other's memory

Im speechless
u got excellent results ?
whoa ! omgossh
congrats !!
ur improvement is really great
so dont be upset
u had gud results
and why are u down ?
i know why ...

I observed ur expression during results announcement
7a's announcement,
u bow down
take a breath
i know
u're thinkin how many a's u can get,
when she get str8 a's ..
and whether u can get further studies
dont worry, be happy !

Thanks dar
for making me feeling better
:)
enjoy ur holidays
and i'll wait 4 u ....


missing
YinG~21#