LAST DAY of 2010

2011 is coming ......

today is 31st dec 2010
last day in 2010 ...

recall my days in 2010 ,
time flies swiftly
pmr year especially
busy wit studies
curriculum
prs
pps
everything ..

piles n piles of homeworks
packed schedule of tuitions
really busy
without realising time had gone so fast

and now
pmr had over
i really miss the days just after pmr
where i can play and enjoy maself
where i can choose to go to sch or not
where i can go outing wit frens , clasmates
haiz ~

i want pmr again :)
then i can enjoy free days again
hahahaha
how nice it is, rite ?

nex year would be a tough year
goin to face new subjects
goin to face new people
old school ,
but gota adapt wit new situations, new rules

prepare for orientation
confident for exams
fuuuh !
i must say
I CAN DO IT !

be happy and ready ,
as u say :
happy-go-lucky = )
i will remember tat !

forget unlucky days in 201o
and lets be 2011 a lucky year


let by gone be by gone
YinG~21#

That should be Me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreadin' bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me,
Does she love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe that
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
It's working cause you know that

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe that
that should be me

(Holding your hand)
That should be me
(The one making you laugh (oh baby oh))
That should be me

That should be me
(Giving you flowers)
That should be me
(Talking for hours)
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me

* Edited -- the song " that should be me "


I remember the time u hold my hands, make me laugh
I remember u said buying me gifts
U said u will give me flowers
shud it be u who talk hours wit me ?

Where is it ?
its all a fake promise
u're not responsible
or did i misunderstood u ?
no idea

tis is so sad
u broke my heart
where's my answer ?
i've been waiting 4 it
u gave a lame excuse
n i noe u're tryin to escape

I dont need answer now
coz i know wat u think
n wats in ur heart
and so
im goin to leave u
im will pull myself frm u
i cant go on like tis

u're the right tea
though u're not as handsome
but u're ..
good as wat i can say

now
im goin to giv up my tea
where we've to queue for hours to buy it
i rather dont try it
than waiting there foolishly

im not in ur eyes, neither in ur heart
i cant replace ur 1st her,
and even couldnt beat ur 2nd her
im the last of the last
though u thought bout me
but not only me
i want to be the one n only
since u cant do it
so i wana blow the whistle
stop now
its game over

im honest in everything
i didnt deny u're not
n u're better than others when u giv reasons before escaping frm my ques
but wat i wana say ,
dont be afraid ,
dont afraid ...
hurt is a must
but i will be better in time
surely will
:)


That should be me
YinG~21#

Secret of hyacinth

Im a glass
therefore my appearance is invisible
same as for u

Im just temporary replacement for u
im just her or her replacement
tis is not i wanted to be

I know im not da lime light
when u doesnt look at me
when u doesnt crave for my appearance
when u doesnt take courage for textin me
when u leave me every nite
when u didnt keep a single msg of mine
Why is tis ?
u kept her msg ..
i wonder if ur inbox is always empty ?

I wait for ur msg every single day
but im the one who started every msg
sorry for being unmanner..

Like wat u noe, i really like u
and i meant it
im not the one who wish u first
im not ur first
but i hope im ur last

u make me one less lonely girl
but u doesnt make me one lucky gurl
I want a daily report frm u
but u doesnt think of doin any

U said she forgot u
at the same time
i noe u r meaning,
u still likes her, right ?

at ur right hand is her
and ur left hand is me ?
deyh , im not a fool !

all ur sweet words is just a fool
u're tryin to poison me huh ?
if u doesnt meant it, dont say !
dont make me feel lonely
dont make me feel angry
dont make me hard to lose u

come on !
tell me wat u want
tell me wat u think
i noe u confuse of urself though

i wan companion, not separation

As the secret of hyacinth says
to make the hyacinth flower to blossom for the 2nd time,
cut off the leaves..
cut the leaves off means forget the past
n prepare for the blossom
can u do tat ?
idk


Hyacinth
Jay-b
YinG~21#

A Post To Rachel

i've been missing at here for a long time dy~

and the 1st post im going to post when i'm back is to talk about 2 guys?!

hope my girls..u all wont mind.. =)

ah Rachel..

honestly , when i first saw your blog i felt surprise..

I mean..i dont know thing goes on like this..

i thought u like Irwin n Chris..n so on?

And what i know bout them is only they are 2 boys that very talented in guitar~

but..

i dont even talk to them face to face before..

Even though we had joined the same camp at November..

but we dint speak to each other at all wor..

all i know about them is that "Oh , this 2 guys are the guitarist!" during PnW time..

then continue sing sing sing..dint realize they're from ur church also..

btw , i believe u had a great time when outing with them..

but i dont think i know him as much as you do..right??

what i feel glad about is that 2 of them are christian!

oh my mum always wanted me to make more chritian frens~

but bout Love leh.at this time i wan 保持沉默~

now is not the right time~ haha!

they said when u are with your love one..

you will feel like u're on top of the world..

how bout others' sights ?! Who cares!!!xD haha

and i know it's the feeling when ur with them..

i think they will be a good friend of u and me..

but i think i can only meet them at next year NSCFL camp la~xDD haha

so make sure u jon next year..

and have fun with the next outing with them ya!!

and thx alot for ur sharing~

sharing ur secrets with me = u care bout me...

cuz sharing is caring ma~~ haha

thanx alot for trusting me ya!!

haha kla..think im gonna bit gudbye here~

38gang..school's going to reopen?

hows u all's feeling??

me very nervous and abit mm seh dak my holiday!!

1st day of scul we have to decide our stream le..

i dont wanna seperate wit u all..

Manda going to Acc class..

den chai shift dy~ haiz

n btw she's going to JB today dy..everyone say gudbye to her =)

bless her 一路顺风~ =)

and scul starts we going to busy with orientation..

hope we'll have fun during the time la !!

kla..see i ngam charm again liao..

haiyoyo..reli x tahan me..haha..kla

TATA~~~~ =D

Ah Peh~ =)

msg to ah peh

ah peh..u noe what?
i start loving to share my secret wit u..
i will alwis wan u to noe 1st abt me..
ex: 'HIM' , irwin, christoper n the others..
bt ofcoz, irwin is the most i talk wit u..
n when ever i saw irwin,it make me think of u ..

n abt HIM ..i din noe that u have relize sumthing abt her..
although its abit hurt bt its alrite..
i have told myself 2011 its a new year ..
i have to reli work for it..
love? i had enough love from GOD .. or myb more than enough..
so y must i need other ppl's love? (i mean couple tat kind of love)
n im sure tat 'ppl's love' wont last long..so y must i suffer of it?
i should resive love from GOD n give love to others..
GOD noe's me the best..
n i trust in him tat he will find a suttable guy for me in future..

okey finish abt love..
nw..abt irwin..i noe u r waiting for it ryte? lol..
i dono how to say bt irwin is a very nice guy u noe..
ytd we went to out n we had a great time..
haha..he talks alot, theres not such word as boring when im with him..
he tells alot of jokes too..he will make sure tat u laugh..lol..
n you noe what!!!!!
i ask him ' seriously, u like her ar?'
u noe what he say??!!
' abit lar ' SHOCK O.o
hahaha..ntg to say d lar..
then after i finish asking tat question he start he ask more abt u..
lyk what ppl r u lar..me n u r good friends ant lar..y i din bring u here lar..zzzzzzz
AH peh!!!! ISH...hahahaha..
then ltr christoper oso start asking ad..
he say ' who? tat ah peh ah? '
lol..then they two start saying ' ah peh talk abt who more?? '
' ofcoz irwin lar..bt she say christoper more leng zai..' lol..happy lar him
suddently u so popular ad in our church..
did u noe tat they 2 very popular de in our church..
nw all the gurl thirst to noe u ad..
lol...jealous dao!!!..

i cant stop talking abt him lar..theres so much more tat u need to noe..



-rachel-

Frust of idiots ?

I saw jane wrote tat she's frustrate over idiots in fbook ..
i wanted to post something like tis in blog here earlier
but doesnt really know how to say n express
after look at wat jane post in fb
i think i know how to write tis post ady

Actually i hav almost same condition as jane
but not really "frust" of "idiots"
mayb mine is some kind of jealousy, hatred
those 3 + 1 gurls
duh ~
they get str8 a's man !
and i shud be happy actually

I know its actually myself who giv me da unpleasant feelings
im the one who think too much n so on
its absolutely not good, i know !
so im tryin 2 eliminate all these
i shud like them although they scored
i shudn't be so selfish
selfish is a self-destroyer !
rawrrr !!


Being a better person
YinG~21#

A B C

U're occupying me
i feel tat i cant resist myself from u
especially after takin pmr results
it feel like
i've accepted ..

we both nervous n afraid
we both crack our head
i went to sch n u greet me
seeing u walkin to me
i dunno wat can i say

pn cik zainun told us 28 str8 a's
and one of them is the sweet person
she again ?
y she keep appearing in my life
even her name also
haih ~
not feeling good

SHE get full a's ?
oh my ...
y everyone tat i wana stay off get 8 a's huh ?
but its alrite
she's my fren
though impleasant wit her
but she pass wit flying colours i shud be happy :)

the feeling after takin pmr results is indeed very bad
i just cant smile or laugh
and doesnt feel like talkin to anybody
just wana stay alone

during tis period of time,
i gotta hav u by my side
in tis time i really find u important
i really want ur comfort n console
but u couldn't help me
tis time u couldn't make me smile :(
its alrite .. u dont hav 2 apologise
i understand
bcz u gota save urself as well
merely ur accompany meant alot to me

u gona leave me to somewhere else
then leave me again n again
i will support u
n we'll be in each other's memory

Im speechless
u got excellent results ?
whoa ! omgossh
congrats !!
ur improvement is really great
so dont be upset
u had gud results
and why are u down ?
i know why ...

I observed ur expression during results announcement
7a's announcement,
u bow down
take a breath
i know
u're thinkin how many a's u can get,
when she get str8 a's ..
and whether u can get further studies
dont worry, be happy !

Thanks dar
for making me feeling better
:)
enjoy ur holidays
and i'll wait 4 u ....


missing
YinG~21#

My PMR result

Get pmr results today ..
i was so scared
i cried because of fear
i had totally no idea about my result

principal said tat thr's 28 candidates get straight a's
pn noraini named out top scorers one by one from 8 a's to 6 a's ..
how i wish tat pn noraini will call out my name as soon as possible
one by one by one by one ....
she had named so many
and none of them is me
i started to feel dissapointed
i feel tat thr's no hope ady
felt like giving up

soon tcher name out 7 a's candidates
azril jefri ! O.O
i had a great shock !
im stil sitting there n he's goin out to take his result slip
awww....
one by one of my fren went out
left me n maxine
max said, sure u go out 1st de la !
just after she say these words n then her named was being called
left me behind, alone waiting in da sitting area
i dunno how to express my feeling at tat time
i was thinking
" im da last person sitting here "
and i cried ...

i got a little little feeling tat my name will be called
and really
it is called
but it is called during 6 a's announcement
i walked out to principal
i feel NOTHING
principal said
nvm, try hard again nex time .... spm
instantly, i cried
and my mum n sis came in front

so many feelings came upon me
i was really really SAD
i feel embarass
i felt guilty
im da least A in my gang
even boys and other classmates which were usually behind
now in front of me, out standing

1st named being called was farrah hazira !
fuyooooh !!
his dad was so proud of her
she cant even believe it herself
wat a nice feeling ....

when zul being called out to take slip
i cried of shock
zul ? omgosh
u're sooo geng !!
it was definitely shocking !
i believe he cried as well
8a's man ! cry of happiness =)

slowly slowly all da unexpected names being announced
i shock till words cant come out my mouth
i was really
speechless
wit hands keep clapping
im more dissapointed

farrah, zul, yun shin, chandira, avinash, cheryl peh, chai shi ying, najihah, lailatul, najwa, nik, hana ........
congratz to u all my classmates !
(sorry for some i didnt name out)

Everyone was being called earlier than me
i was happy :)
and upset at da same time :(
i dunno wats my feeling
im really confuse

Peh sit bside me ..
and her name was called
n i shouted so loud for her !
wooohooo ~

i got 6A 2B
im not happy at all
im so so upset
and maybe
i was the last name which was called out on da announcement

thanks to all who comforted me ..
mami, sis, jane, jane's mum, yi xin, yi xin's mum, pn noraini, azril's mum, balqis, allysa, balqish, kenny, bang syahdann ...
and other frens
thank you !
thnks.. u all said it is just pmr, spm only is da really important one..
pn noraini said to me, dont cry, dont sad, see u sad i also sad..
it was touching
thnk u all ...

i smile wit all of u wit tears
i was really really sad
all the consoling words reflect to me how concern u all is
i am happy tat u all concern bout me
i am happy u all ask bout me
yes i am
but not wit my results ...

I know,
its all my fault
i did not study hard enuf
i shudn't look down on anything
because anything is possible
sorry
im so sorry :(((

Congrats to all straight a's candidates
yun shin
cheryl peh
shi ying
yi xin
avinaash
chandira
pavitran
najihah
najwa
lailatul
zul
nik
syarfanis
fatin
fu seng
kuan chew
pei san
lih meei
shyan
dominic

well done !

God,
thru tis time,
i know wat msg u want to send to me
u ask me not to look down on weaks
u warn me not to behave like u can success,
but to really work out hard
and i know
u want me to be prepared muc muc earlier b4 every exams
u wan me to listen to advise,
not to behave so stubbornly
i get it !
im so sorry
im here to apologise ...
lord plz 4give me n giv me another chance
Amen



Today is not my day
A sadden me
YinG~21#

2010 pmr results

2010 PMR results is coming out TOMORROW !
fuhh ~
nervous + afraid
whether i will walk away wit laughter ?
or wit heads bow down ?

I will take my results wit a smily face
but after taking ..
i dunno wat expression i will have

Red light

I realize i cant stop thinkin of u
im missin' u deeper
i'll be afraid of any changes in u

sometimes when u're saying, but not from ur heart,
i feel it n started to be aware, nervous or afraid
these all i guess is bcause lack of trust
or mayb curious
or doubt

tis is not i wanted
tis is wat i wana get rid of
but now it really happens
i prefer the previous me
n i want it back !
i will try hard for it
and stop these all



Sweet dreams ~
YinG~21#

Its between us

Let's pray
I LOVE JB ! <3 style="COLOR: rgb(204,102,204)">u have the physical i ever wanted
u have the property i longed for
u have the humour i needed
u have the words i dreamed

when u n ur fren came in,
i chose u,
but not him
no reason
till now i still prefer u

basically u' re almost perfect
u' re da right tea in my cup
u have a really good life
i envy ur attractions and family
and i hope u will appreciate it

u brought me down,
when u reveal tat ur true love is only wit her
i understand
everyone likes her
even u, ur mum ..
yes, i always being behind HER

I know however hard i tried
i cant replace her in ur heart
same as i cant replace haziq's or even had a chance for HIM's

We know bout each other's
but still
we're GOOD
caring
sweet talks
accompany
we take away our loneliness
we had fun wit each other
but, is these all truely from da bottom of our hearts ?
is ur words true ?
its nice to hear, nice to say, but i dont think its true

wat will happen in da future ? it's still a doubt
whether we'll be better ?
or worst ?
how long can tis last ?
i hope we'll stay like this
as long as we can
it feels good
i hope i wouldnt thirst for more
which will ruin me

if we'll be even better, how good can we be ?
there's bound between us
we cant go any further
if im like u, i will
but im not, and i cant, even i want to
absolutely a no-no
:(

I cant forget da time we spent tgther
we smile, we apologise
i wont forget ur words
i will remember
the moment u hold my hands
giv me comfort
it was just like a dream,
a sweet dream,
tat u wished me almost every nite .....

I wrote these here
bcause


I mis u now
YinG~21#

Holiday xii : Church + X'mas party

Just past 12pm and it is 20th Dec today ...
I was not able to post tis earlier before 12 o'clock :(

I just came bac from angeline's house
havin xmas party
my fren cant attend n i dunno who else she invite
i went there full of doubt
not very excited

Whooa ! many cars out there
i didnt thought there will be so many ppl as it is rainin'
when i just go in ,
pastor was prayin'
n prayer just ended
i didnt know church members aso came
( kah chun, aunty esther, pastor, mrs sim, dorcas )

i was finding 4 angeline
where is she ?
then she came n greet me
fuhh ~

lots of food there
white rice, rice wit vege, yellow rice, mutton, boar, chic, noodles, capatti, fruits and CAKE !
tat x'mas cake was really really beautiful !
it is not like normal cake which is round in shape..
it's log shape, got santa claus, a house, leaves, n strawberries
basically chocolate cake
nice + yummy !!
christmas cake =P

Waaah .. May Ann really treats me well
i came alone and she accompany me all da time even though her relatives is here
makes me fell unlonely n friendly :)
she's great !

I see may ann n Athrian was really good to their babysitting child
they cared them n played wit them
n those children also listen 2 their words
n even learnt their languages
it is envy though

b4 goin home i played carrom wit may ann n her relatives (little boy)
omgosh .. tat lil boy was really cute n funny though
bu yao bu yao ! hahaah
i learnt the meaning of - poni
aww.. little gurl aso understand punjabi language
had fun there

how amazing i could be in a multi-language home
n even have a multi-language fren
how i wish i could understand every language
hahaa

nex time if she had party again
i would definitely GO !
wooohooo
enjoy

hope its not too late to say BYE here ! =D

xxxxxxxx


morning i went to church wit mum n sis
bro adrian preeching
he, as usual, funny
listen to him was really fun n not sleepy xD

b4 goin home we ate porridge prepared by aunty Judy ..
nothin happen
everything just normal ....


YinG~21#

Holiday xi : GH + Evengalist Night

leave for Ying~21#

tyty

Frustrated!!!!

this holidays, although i did spend my time wisely and quite meaningful

but im still frust with it!

i think i would rather stay away from my family better than staying at home always!!!

ying, for me, u r much more better than me! although im not the 1 who get scolded everytime

but im the 1 who listening to ppl scolding, getting scold, grumbling, mumbling...

what should i do to make this family relationship better??!

i dont want anything negative to happen, can i?

my bro keep doing things which made my both parents get mad and angry..

im very very upset to see his changes

why is he like this?

after parents scolding them, i would see something like, after war...

parents quiet bro quiet, then bro went out... parents grumbling again

my ears!!! my mind!!! my heart!! do u all know it is suffering to me?

it is not suffer that i heard all of this, im sad becoz u all are not harmonic anymore

im feeling to give up in rescuing u all..

evenhough im the youngest in my hse, yet, still i have to worry for u all!

u all r driving me crazy u know??!

i just hope u all will never seen me end up in tanjung rambutan

now, 1 more person to worry about

my hse maid!

i realize that she is not a simple girl

she is teenager, and i know her thinking

she is not suitable to be a maid, which require her to lock herself in a hse

buddha, plz.....

i need you u to give me a kind of power to face of all thses

i cannot bear it anymore with my own energy

wat im thinking n feeling, i cnt reveal it out. i can just pretending like im nothing

im happy, im fine... i live without worries

watever i am, i m going to be crazy!!

crazy me, jane

Frustrating hols

Just dont understand why these days keep getting scold !
plus me n my 2nd sis keep saying things opposite !
arghh
wat's wrong ?

wake up early in da morning ,
went downstairs n get scolded ady
cuz i dropped my sis pendrives n CDs
hey ! why u gota takes off my mood bcause of things tat ady happened ?
duh ~

abit abit get scold again ..
by sis, mum, dad ....
for no reason !
but why ME ?!

really furious about all this
stop now i warn u !
i will burst in any time !
im human tat has feelings
my job is not following u n ur desire
u're not deserve to treat me good or bad according to ur desire
get it ?
h a i z ~

I hope da following holiday will be a better day
:)


YinG~21#

Holiday X ： help out + x'mas celebration

On da 10th of dec ....

Holidays nothin to do ..
but on tat day my holidays seems to be colourful abit
bcause my sis n I went to new church
help out on cleaning
it has been such a long time i've not hang out wit church members
n it was my 1st time 2 step into da new church though

i didnt thought hosea will be there
since he has spm goin on
but surprisingly ,
his mum told me he's in there >>>
hahahaah !
so i went n greet him
till now ..
i was still thinkin, why his mum tell me where he is ?
hahaa ..
but its alrite xP

And so we both clean a huge cupboard
while chattin' n chatting
it was really a great chance since we've not seen each other for some time
n there's much 2 know abt

we both wipe an aircond each
woooh ! the aircond really scared me off !
when something drops , i was frightened n almost fell off my ladder !
fuhh .. but luckily i was not ! :)

only awhile n we all are done wit out jobs
time for packing n leave ! hahaa
aunty serene said was so good me n my sis came 2 help
if not hosea will be bored
wit 3 aunties
but luckily now he can have someone 2 talk to ..
hahahaa
she was humour right ?


xxxxxx


On da same night,
tesco in rawang had x'mas celebration
there were lots of food !

my church members had choir performance , but i arrive late to see it !
n there i saw a number of politician
there's also local artist including jacklyn victor ,
but i left before could see her perform

i was there only about 1 hr n had to leave
i saw some church members n pastor
n again i saw hosea
he's included in da choir
tis time, i did not greet him
he was wit his frens
haha

hmm..
i feel like thr's something more 2 say,
but i dont know what it was ...
its okay ..


YinG~21#

Unlucky day

Im feeling unlucky 2day
my short white pants tat i just bought ytd in 1U is stained !!
get some blue colouring while washin in washin machine wit other blue colour clothes / towel
huh? im shocked when i knew bout it
arghh
i hadnt wear it yet n it become not perfect ady ..
haiz wat la ?!!

2nd thing
my mum scold me tdy
crumpled clothes n unproper hangers
no brain no brain !
ishh
u la
i helped n u say me
u do urself la !
damn

dont pissed me off when im tired !
dont u understand ?
arghh

[ it's da worst day when im tired ]


YinG~21#

Holidays VII : Dental appointment

After 2 months, i had dental appointment again today for fixing (tightening)
Dr.bernard done it for me while explaining to new trainee
" for patient's satisfaction "
tis is wat he said to his trainee
whoa ! pro
he said tat wit slang
fuyoooh
i like tat ! ahaha

he change my rubber
blue colour now
n transparent one crossing between my braces
haha
i dont really know how 2 explain ..

In a nutshell,
da rubber is strong n pulling my teeth inwards
it is tight !
n surely painful .. :(

aww..
he's yeng man !!
his stripes shirt omg
his standing posture
loveee it !

meet again nex month
:)

YinG~21#

Holidays VI : Outing wit fam

ytd went outing wit family, to 1U
we planned to start journey at 10.30am
but we went out at arnd 12pm
wat to do ..
3 gurls here
sure take long time lookin at da mirror ! xD

we bought rotiboy
n took lunch in a food court there
after tat we gai gai ..
finally i bought a short pants !!
i wanted pants long time ady
wohooo ~
but da black one is nice too :(
n my eldest sis bought a skinny jeans

b4 goin bac,
my eldest sis lead us to a japanese shop
we bought japanese ice-cream
green tea + red bean flavour
wa .. 1st time try dat !!
n guess how much it cost ?
rm 10 for 2 !
walao eh ...
tat's just ice-cream woh ..

n my 1st time tryin Pretzels
sour cream + onion flavour ..
oh yeah ~
not bad...

my sis bought 4 rotiboy again b4 leaving cuz its too delicious
ahaha

whoa ..
tried alot of new food tat i hadnt tried b4
fuuh
feeling luxurious in tis outing ...
my eldest sis came bac frm aus ,
so malaysia's price is considered cheap 4 her
damn exp food aso we ate such as dat icecream i mentioned above
sis bought 4 us
haha


:)
YinG~21#

Holidays V : Dusty day

my eldest sis came bac ady !!
she's sneezing bcz allergy to DUST
my room is dusty ! eww
i think a couple of years i didnt wipe out dust ady ....
so last 2 days we cleaned n wipe our room

we cleaned everywhere,
including doors, frame, posters, radio, cupboard, rack and fan
phew~
we get rid quite an amout of dust !
muahaha

now most probably my room is cleaned ady ..
but of cuz,
dust came bac very fast !
i wipe out da dust n only a lil while it came bac again
haiz
its no-end ..

cleaning thingy shud be consistent
fuuhh
i did something useful again
:)


YinG~21# here

Holidays IV : Havin' fun

Yeah !!
my eldest sis is coming bac today
goin 2 airport 2nite to pick her up

now im havin fun first, by playin all sorts of computer games
how wasting time rite ?
well, tats HOLIDAY ! heee xp

we will be goin shopping
most probably goin 2 ts again
ahahaah

and
on da 15 - 18 of dec we will be in genting
awana ..

i wonder when would be my 6y class gathering ..
miss my old frens =D

fuhh ~
gonna be busy outing in these days
:)


YinG~21#

Holidays III : Crazy wit TJ

Recently not feeling well
n finally today i can bath wit cold water :)

Today almost whole afternoon looking at dong yu zhe's fb profile
n stuff bout them
aww.. im falling 4 them
goshh....
tis will only make me upset :(

they're cute n cool ... omg !!
they even present at sj's concert ?
whoaa ! unbelievable ?!
how come ?

how i wish i could be like them .. .
only a year n they're well-known
even act several tv shows
n expand till taiwan ady
such lucky ~

1 thing im curious about
is tat facebook which im lookin at really belongs 2 them ?
how could i identify ?
as u noe,
many ppl, especially fans like to pretend as tj n so many ppl comment on their profile
wana ask manda bout tis,
hope she knew it as she found sj's real profile if im not mistaken ..

fuhh ~

I loveeee TJ !
oh gosh


YinG~21#

My colour - BRACES

I put on my braces on 16th June 2010

these are colours of my braces :: :)
ORANGE (which i choose myself)
GREY
PURPLE > brown > maroon > purple (colour changes due to kunyit) :(
BLUE + transparent (transparent > light yellow > dark yellow > light yellow)
Wire + transparent + red

Nex appointment on :: (appointment date not given yet)

Aww .. u make me nervous xD
maybe because i dunno how 2 talk or dare not say out my probs
btw, u are not bad
I'll be relieve just after check ups
fuhh ~



** tis post will be upgraded from time to time
heee


YinG~21#

Holidays II : Time Square

last few days went 2 time square wit jane & her cousin
we went there for shopping
jane bought clothes + a "useless" thing (she herself said it is useless, not me)
her cousin bought clothes + bag
and i bought accessories
n we all bought keychain ....
ahahah

before tis i really wanted 2 go ts
waitin' eagerly for tis
but tis time i appear 2 be not excited than b4
mayb bcz some cant go ..
n only 3 of us
thought it wouldnt be fun

but den it turns fine
we all get along perfectly
but walkin for soo long really tired though
plus me n jane feeling pain on our back
dunno why ....

we ate at subway for lunch
since i had coupon
den we go on shop shop shoppp
around 6pm we went back
by monorail, ktm n then jane's papa fetch us at rwg ..

for dinner,
jane's papa took us eat nga choi gai at rwg
whooa !
i was shock tat actually that chicken shop which i wanted 2 know is just near my dental clinic
gotta introduce tat shop to those who love chicken rice ! xP

tats all i wanted to record down.. hahaah

btw, my sis is comin bac frm aus soon !
woohooo ~


YinG~21#

原来这是人生

六天五夜的生活营就这样转眼间地成了我刻骨铭心的回忆

刚开始毕竟有少许不习惯

他们都比我有经验，比我熟悉身边的一切

遇到了现师父，度师父，住师父，严师父

还有从各地来的义工们，我们都为这次的生活营奋斗，努力准备

希望能够呈现最好的给大家

起初，我领到了小老师也就是辅导员这个工作

感觉蛮轻松，因为在学校都有过不少的经验

但是，事情比想象中的不顺利

我的营员们都很顽皮，很爱捣蛋，唱反调！ 气到我都不懂要怎样

还因为这样，他们被罚跪在佛陀面前忏悔

除了这些，住师父和严师父也告诉了我们很多人生哲理

人生，就是需要我们发自内心去观察，去关注的事情

在人生中，有些事情是免不了的

就像生，老，病，死

虽然这些环节都是我们的必经之路

甚至会让我们痛苦难熬

但是我们都摆脱不了

唯一能做的就是，面对，接下来学会解脱

这，也许是境界，也许对我们来说是不可思议

但，竟然我们已经被安排来到了这世界上

那我们就要学习怎样面对人生中的挑战

才能让我们活得更舒服，更自在！

我们被通知说，营员们有的是从孤儿院来的

当小老师谈起父母亲的话题时，要求营员们为父母写一封信

有好几位营员都试着摆脱，他们说要上厕所，要出去

我应该猜想到了

后来，有个男同学一直叫我让他出去，我说再等一下可以吗？拿了纸再出去可以吗？

他既然给了一个让我无言的答案

他说，我都没有妈妈， 写什么？

原来他一直以来对所有一切的抱怨是来自他心里早已有的创伤

我没有怪他

这全是因为他是孤儿，他没有像其他人一样

有父母的疼爱，照顾

就因为这样， 他心里有了不满意，怨恨，抱怨

因此，他的人生可能就这样被他的命运给毁了

我告诉了他们， 不要被你的人生打败， 你，就是那策划人生的关键

reserved!!!! gtg

人生的起终

today morn jogging wit my mum I realise these prinsip in life ::
u will understand after reading da text below

人生犹如马拉松
群人一起开跑
但是最后到达终点的， 是一个人--自己。

人生的路靠自己完成
跌倒挫折，
也许会有人拉你一把，
但是爬起来后, 还是要靠自己完成路程了。

人生当中会遇见新朋友
要跑在人前或人后，
全靠毅力，坚持，胆量

有些在马拉松过程中
会失去搏斗精神，
脑海出现放弃的概念。
有些则期望着跑越前者。
而有些又因为被参赛者跑越了
不服气的追奔。

跑累了，
总要停下来歇歇气，
才继续行程

至于达到终点的快慢，
关键就是--靠自己！
要跑得快，要胜于人，又要跑得轻松，
就凭自己平日不段的练习，
而且要打好基础，诀窍，体能。

人生中不少会遇到风波
海浪总不会停止的。
但是，
我们总有一天会达到终点
也许我们是到达终点的最后一人，
但是你要对自己说，我成功了！
因为，
你完成了马拉松，你完成了路程
总比半途而废，停在半路的朋友来得成功。

时间，
完成马拉松的快慢，
已不是重点了。
最主要的是，
我们一定要走完这一段路程吖 。。。


YinG~21#

Little diary (2009)

8th of May
in cg heard tat ur phone lost
but it actually lost on 7th May

13th of Apr
they said u gonna shift to my sch...

12th Apr
ur grandma passed away at age 86/87
on 13th Apr u went 2 ur grandma's hse

7th of Mac
sat - i shake hands twice wit u in yf ... xp

14th of Apr
im god sis of onn


im just recording down...
dont nid 2 understand wat i wrote... hahaah


YinG~21#

Holidays I : happy or opposite ?

2day i cleaned n arranged nicely items on my room's table
finally i feel " hmm... i did something today! "
tats a really really gud feeling !
awww

den i help mum,
i wash my hat,
i done something tat i wanted to do long ago but havent complete
phew ~
such a relief !

after all these i take a good shower
i was exhausted and tired
but it was valuable :)



xxxxxxxxx



tis morning till afternoon i do my chores
i feel so happy n relax after doin it

but now,
at nite,
i feel soo down after watchin news n an interview show n tv
i dont understand wat im watchin' at
i dont un wat they're talkin about
i dont un wat they're tryin to present to da audience (me)
perhaps im weak in english
or mayb im weak in da sense of hearing
where i cant catch up fast like others do :(

my parents said " how come u dont un ? "
ewww, it hurts .. haiz
im not a genius
im human too
u all understand, good
how old are u guys n how old m i ?
u all learn more than i do
but, is it correct when i blame our age on tis prob ?
i dont know ...

Now i knw tat ::
when u try 2 do something tat u dont know,
it is tiring n it require more energy
=(

Anyhow,
i gotta improve
improve improve, n improve !!


Oh god,
give me wisdom
n improve my hearing
make me catch up faster day by day
n be a genius one day ...
hehee
Amen ~


YinG~21# here

2010 spm

Spm had started today..

ytd nite i sms-ed danny, samson & samuel to wish them...
n a day b4 ytd,
i phoned hosea to wish him too
he picked up da phone vry quickly,
but unfortunately he was busy :(

i didnt msg farrah (mama) & ily doesnt mean i forget u all... hehe
i hope all of u will do well in spm

guys n gurls, grab all Apples !!
pray 4 u all ...

ALL THE BEST !!!


YinG~21#

Year-end holidays

Its 2010 year end long holidays
i thought it will be fun
i thought i will be very busy
but its all not

its so boring here !
although had many things tat i havent complete
n i told myself i wana do it,
i failed ...

I just feel so lazy to do it
boringgg !
n i find many many excuse to not to do it ...
wat la me....!
hate la

i feel so useless tis holidays
i did nothing !!
i didnt do anything useful
i did not help in da house
just sleep, watch tv, play, online, chat ..
n it rotates n rotates like a merry go round .....
haiz ~

i dont care u la cheryl lim !
u gotta do all ur chores in tis holiday itself !!
its a must !
huhuu

u told me,
let by gone be by gone ?
is it b4 tis i lazy so now i gotta work out ?
or is it b4 tis i had study 3 years, 3 years non-stop so now i gotta take a rest ?
idk la..
haih

God,
i hope tat u will take my laziness away,
let me complete all my work in my list-to-do
i wish tat i can use tis holiday wisely
n had a meaningful holiday
:)


YinG~21#

Dissapointment

Because u're my best fren,
i care so much bout u
i think i shud not listed u as my best fren
so tat i wouldnt care too much bout u
n tat i would not get hurt by u

It is soo clearly be seen
it can be seen since long time ago
even since b4 pmr
just tat i dont realise it !
im such a dumb !!

I've been askin u da same ques for several times,
it is obviously seen
but u deny it in front if me !
why?
cant u be honest 2 me?
i had admited everything
even da most important secret 2 me
im sorry for haziq
he didnt seems like angry though,
but how he really thinks i dont know ...

u gave him da superr nice bookmark tat i actually asked u to reserve it 4 me
its alrite ...

next, u gave him keychain
i saw it n when i signal to u,
u seems dont care n tryin 2 escape frm tat situation
well, i understands ..

u told me tis time u gona keep tat keychain
but well,
unluckily,
i saw it again on him
are u gona knock ur head tat i saw it ?!

wats all tis? i dont understand !
not clear enuf huh ?!
hey, y so shy ? im ur fren man !

put aside all these gifts,
wat about " i love you " ? huh ?
wat u gonna say now ?

wat about tat personal chat ?
u hide it !
i did not ask u,
becuz i knew it already ...
u was willing to leave us just 2 have tat
n tat was long
u only replied " bye " when someone gonna leave
all these showed tat u're by HIS side !
not us anymore
ur heart is all THERE
duh~

i understand ...
i understand ...
im not breaking u all
i didnt disagree
im not blaming
i just want u to admit n u dun wana do tat !
wat is so hard ?
scared huh?
dont know ?
nonsense !
im furious as long as u did not admit
i dont know why n it is just like tat
n i dont need u to do tat now cuz i dont wana know

stupid !!!
im not caring anymore
im not goin out
u go by ur own
arghh ~


Anonymous
can i dont write my name here ?

Good fren of mine

Finally i found a good fren
can say 1st male gud fren i guess
wao, amazing..

I take it as a gud fren though, mayb he didnt think like I do
HE console me n praise me
not like haziq who always tease n blame on me
haiz ~

Everything was so coincident
he threw ice on me till i got no idea wat 2 do
he make me fall
in a day !
wat the...
it was painful !
but its alrite..
hahaah

He said he'll take care of me
he's not a "good" person,
not responsible
not trustable
but he's good in another way,
it depends on what...
he was good to me :)

Thanks my fren !
u did make me happy =D

I hope u'll be a better person..


YinG~21#

Asian games final

It's asian games final tdy, men single...
chong wei vs lin dan
Lin Dan won
fuhh~
i heard dat tis was da 1st time he won gold medal in asian games

nex asian games dunno chong wei will be takin part anot..
hope got le..
can see him again
he havent get gold medal in tis game ler

btw, i likeee 2 see lin dan man !
he's adorable
aww ~
cute n handsome at da same time

the end of badminton ...


YinG~21#

Jamuan kelas 3A - 16.11.10

Annual jamuan kelas for 3A was held in rwg pizza hut
Around 28 person attended
n haziq not from our class came too
hmm..
it was fun tat day

we had 8 pizzas all 2gether
garlic breads
n mushroom soups
pepsi / 100 plus i think
n tats all ..

unfortunately about quarter of our classmates didnt attend
huhuu
they had their own reasons... :(
We just eat, chit chat n take photoss especially
we took photoss everywhere
no matter in or outside pizza hut, on da road, in shopping mall, or mac'd
ayooo ~

After pizza me n some classmates went parkson ...
me n jane went into qiant buy snacks ! xD
den we move on to macd
they online there
after makan den go bustop n head 2 bch

It was not so fun when someone spyin on me
arghh! stupid laa
i still take my time :)
duh~

Tats the end of da day xp
Those who didnt went there can read tis post
hehee


YinG~21#

Dewan Siswa & Dewan Masyarakat

Hello girls, yx here. Have any interest in reading majalah Dewan Siswa and Dewan Masyarakat? Both magazines are very good. Besides bm (factual and narrative) essays that use high-leveled vocab, they contain other subjects like SPM bm, English, physics, biology, mathematics etc. the notes given are very useful too.

I would like to share the magazines and the payment if possible, because the total amount for the two magazines is RM 97.20 for 12 months. Yet I don't think we are able to pass around the magazines during year end holidays, so I'll pay for the last 2 months, which are Nov n Dec:-

(RM 97.20 / 12) x 10 months = RM 81.00 (this will be the amount we share)

If we share this payment, we don't have to pay so much individually to gain knowledge from both magazines throughout our year of form 4. Send sms to me if interested.

Between, HAPPY HOLIDAYS sweeties ^^

Best Wishes,

Yixin.

Suffer in life

U're quite handsome
kinda cute
honest mayb
n can keep secret
but u can be quite boring
not funny
hmm....

Mayb im the one who attracts u,
u took da 1st step,
n i continue the other
n mayb, i gotta stop now !

It was all like wat i've thought of
u really likes HER
i revealed ur secrets tat u tried 2 hide
i asked u,
u likes HER b4?
u said yes
n i asked again,
do u still likes her now?
u said now is "like" as frens

Was all u said is true? i wonder..
wheneva i ask u bout these
u demand me to stop n change topic....
means?
actually u're revealing dat u stil likes her
u ask me 2 stop talkin bout tis,
so tat u would stop thinkin of her, right?!

I shud not be so dumb again
i shud not treat u as gud as tis
i shud stop my steps
n mayb let it be how it will be..

For a few times i think of giving up of u
it just came in my mind whenever im jealous
its suffering !
but now,
i really wants 2 giv up
i dont wan tis 2 happen again

If u talk or find me,
i will reply
if not,
gud bye then ...


YinG~21#

Genting trip (9th of Nov 2010)

3A class teacher, sir sundara purposely planned a genting trip 4 our class after pmr..
tis plan was even planned b4 pmr... :)
Earlier planned 2 overnite thr 4 1 nite
but it was not a success..

Finally da day 2 go 2 genting came
On tat day all participants hav 2 came early 2 sch..
cuz we gona leave early n back late!
wahaha

Unfortunately,
we start our jouney late
delayed for 1 hour
u noe why?
cuz principal dont allow us 2 go 2 da bus until everyone wear sch's sport shirt or uniform..
zadao lor
bring down da mood nia + waste money
ishh
Nway, after reaching a petrol station we all get down n chg our clothes... muahaha
all wear dao leng leng..

All of us played so many things
1st of all we went 2 ply pirate ship
swing played 2 round liao
elephant
bumper car
bowling
wat else huh? cant rmb edy....

We had buffet 4 lunch
9 of us in 1 table
whole table full wit plates
waiter aso cum n clean up several times ady
hahahah
actually i think tat da food thr ma ma dei only
n not so hygienic aso
plates, forks n spoons aso not very clean....
mayb bcuz old liao? hehee

Too bad,
on dat day many theme park games were closed due 2 maintenance or repair
especially roller.. didnt open
manda soo sad.. she wana play tat sooo muc! can also say daaa mosttt!
hahhha
nvm lar.. nxtime can go again de... hehee

We dont hav enuf time 2 play 2nd round bowling n gold cart
so bs, i play bowling keep go longkang! ishhh!!
wat happen la? ugh..
I n mx x sempat play da throw bangle into bottle
cant get big bear! T^T

However, tis genting trip was damn fun!
each n everyone of us enjoyed it so muc!!
it's memorable~

YinG~21#

ANTI

Its anti- time!
I gotta anti bad things in me
start from now....

Sleep early
no angry face
no rude
no tease
only praise
only funny
smile alwis
no sos
sincere

U can do so if u're willing to~

YinG~21#

Before goin genting

Me n my classmates n my frens are goin 2 genting 2 days more!
we were all eager even b4 pmr,
we waited for so long ady
n some of us keep thinking abt it,
n planned wat to do at tat day etc...

But now,
i had no feeling bout it
i was like dont wana go ady
bcuz of so many things
1stly, our class tcher didnt explain properly
n gave us the letter on the eleventh hour
peh almost not going ady
its like, we go there cuz we had paid for it..
it seems like no more excited feeling =(
2ndly, u can see the news
almost everyday got bus accident news
do u think its save?
im not cursing..
God please protect me whenever I am...

En Sundara told me we are going bowling, then snow house, then buffet lunch...
my dad said snow house would be wet..
n games aso will wet (he mean theme park maybe..)
hav 2 bring extra clothes go...

I wana wash my sch bag 2day
so tat its clean n i can put my clothes 2 bring 2 genting
but
2day whole day no sun
plus morning started 2 rain ady
i couldnt do so
how? wat bag can i bring? haiz~
no idea.....

Tmrw is monday
n im going 2 sch
mayb tcher gona giv taklimat or do's n donts'
so im goin 2 listen =)
n it will be the 2nd day for peh 2 go sch after pmr
see u tmr!

Going 2 bed
YinG~21#