My PMR result

Get pmr results today ..
i was so scared
i cried because of fear
i had totally no idea about my result

principal said tat thr's 28 candidates get straight a's
pn noraini named out top scorers one by one from 8 a's to 6 a's ..
how i wish tat pn noraini will call out my name as soon as possible
one by one by one by one ....
she had named so many
and none of them is me
i started to feel dissapointed
i feel tat thr's no hope ady
felt like giving up

soon tcher name out 7 a's candidates
azril jefri ! O.O
i had a great shock !
im stil sitting there n he's goin out to take his result slip
awww....
one by one of my fren went out
left me n maxine
max said, sure u go out 1st de la !
just after she say these words n then her named was being called
left me behind, alone waiting in da sitting area
i dunno how to express my feeling at tat time
i was thinking
" im da last person sitting here "
and i cried ...

i got a little little feeling tat my name will be called
and really
it is called
but it is called during 6 a's announcement
i walked out to principal
i feel NOTHING
principal said
nvm, try hard again nex time .... spm
instantly, i cried
and my mum n sis came in front

so many feelings came upon me
i was really really SAD
i feel embarass
i felt guilty
im da least A in my gang
even boys and other classmates which were usually behind
now in front of me, out standing

1st named being called was farrah hazira !
fuyooooh !!
his dad was so proud of her
she cant even believe it herself
wat a nice feeling ....

when zul being called out to take slip
i cried of shock
zul ? omgosh
u're sooo geng !!
it was definitely shocking !
i believe he cried as well
8a's man ! cry of happiness =)

slowly slowly all da unexpected names being announced
i shock till words cant come out my mouth
i was really
speechless
wit hands keep clapping
im more dissapointed

farrah, zul, yun shin, chandira, avinash, cheryl peh, chai shi ying, najihah, lailatul, najwa, nik, hana ........
congratz to u all my classmates !
(sorry for some i didnt name out)

Everyone was being called earlier than me
i was happy :)
and upset at da same time :(
i dunno wats my feeling
im really confuse

Peh sit bside me ..
and her name was called
n i shouted so loud for her !
wooohooo ~

i got 6A 2B
im not happy at all
im so so upset
and maybe
i was the last name which was called out on da announcement

thanks to all who comforted me ..
mami, sis, jane, jane's mum, yi xin, yi xin's mum, pn noraini, azril's mum, balqis, allysa, balqish, kenny, bang syahdann ...
and other frens
thank you !
thnks.. u all said it is just pmr, spm only is da really important one..
pn noraini said to me, dont cry, dont sad, see u sad i also sad..
it was touching
thnk u all ...

i smile wit all of u wit tears
i was really really sad
all the consoling words reflect to me how concern u all is
i am happy tat u all concern bout me
i am happy u all ask bout me
yes i am
but not wit my results ...

I know,
its all my fault
i did not study hard enuf
i shudn't look down on anything
because anything is possible
sorry
im so sorry :(((

Congrats to all straight a's candidates
yun shin
cheryl peh
shi ying
yi xin
avinaash
chandira
pavitran
najihah
najwa
lailatul
zul
nik
syarfanis
fatin
fu seng
kuan chew
pei san
lih meei
shyan
dominic

well done !

God,
thru tis time,
i know wat msg u want to send to me
u ask me not to look down on weaks
u warn me not to behave like u can success,
but to really work out hard
and i know
u want me to be prepared muc muc earlier b4 every exams
u wan me to listen to advise,
not to behave so stubbornly
i get it !
im so sorry
im here to apologise ...
lord plz 4give me n giv me another chance
Amen



Today is not my day
A sadden me
YinG~21#