原来这是人生

六天五夜的生活营就这样转眼间地成了我刻骨铭心的回忆

刚开始毕竟有少许不习惯

他们都比我有经验，比我熟悉身边的一切

遇到了现师父，度师父，住师父，严师父

还有从各地来的义工们，我们都为这次的生活营奋斗，努力准备

希望能够呈现最好的给大家

起初，我领到了小老师也就是辅导员这个工作

感觉蛮轻松，因为在学校都有过不少的经验

但是，事情比想象中的不顺利

我的营员们都很顽皮，很爱捣蛋，唱反调！ 气到我都不懂要怎样

还因为这样，他们被罚跪在佛陀面前忏悔

除了这些，住师父和严师父也告诉了我们很多人生哲理

人生，就是需要我们发自内心去观察，去关注的事情

在人生中，有些事情是免不了的

就像生，老，病，死

虽然这些环节都是我们的必经之路

甚至会让我们痛苦难熬

但是我们都摆脱不了

唯一能做的就是，面对，接下来学会解脱

这，也许是境界，也许对我们来说是不可思议

但，竟然我们已经被安排来到了这世界上

那我们就要学习怎样面对人生中的挑战

才能让我们活得更舒服，更自在！

我们被通知说，营员们有的是从孤儿院来的

当小老师谈起父母亲的话题时，要求营员们为父母写一封信

有好几位营员都试着摆脱，他们说要上厕所，要出去

我应该猜想到了

后来，有个男同学一直叫我让他出去，我说再等一下可以吗？拿了纸再出去可以吗？

他既然给了一个让我无言的答案

他说，我都没有妈妈， 写什么？

原来他一直以来对所有一切的抱怨是来自他心里早已有的创伤

我没有怪他

这全是因为他是孤儿，他没有像其他人一样

有父母的疼爱，照顾

就因为这样， 他心里有了不满意，怨恨，抱怨

因此，他的人生可能就这样被他的命运给毁了

我告诉了他们， 不要被你的人生打败， 你，就是那策划人生的关键

reserved!!!! gtg

人生的起终

today morn jogging wit my mum I realise these prinsip in life ::
u will understand after reading da text below

人生犹如马拉松
群人一起开跑
但是最后到达终点的， 是一个人--自己。

人生的路靠自己完成
跌倒挫折，
也许会有人拉你一把，
但是爬起来后, 还是要靠自己完成路程了。

人生当中会遇见新朋友
要跑在人前或人后，
全靠毅力，坚持，胆量

有些在马拉松过程中
会失去搏斗精神，
脑海出现放弃的概念。
有些则期望着跑越前者。
而有些又因为被参赛者跑越了
不服气的追奔。

跑累了，
总要停下来歇歇气，
才继续行程

至于达到终点的快慢，
关键就是--靠自己！
要跑得快，要胜于人，又要跑得轻松，
就凭自己平日不段的练习，
而且要打好基础，诀窍，体能。

人生中不少会遇到风波
海浪总不会停止的。
但是，
我们总有一天会达到终点
也许我们是到达终点的最后一人，
但是你要对自己说，我成功了！
因为，
你完成了马拉松，你完成了路程
总比半途而废，停在半路的朋友来得成功。

时间，
完成马拉松的快慢，
已不是重点了。
最主要的是，
我们一定要走完这一段路程吖 。。。


YinG~21#

Little diary (2009)

8th of May
in cg heard tat ur phone lost
but it actually lost on 7th May

13th of Apr
they said u gonna shift to my sch...

12th Apr
ur grandma passed away at age 86/87
on 13th Apr u went 2 ur grandma's hse

7th of Mac
sat - i shake hands twice wit u in yf ... xp

14th of Apr
im god sis of onn


im just recording down...
dont nid 2 understand wat i wrote... hahaah


YinG~21#

Holidays I : happy or opposite ?

2day i cleaned n arranged nicely items on my room's table
finally i feel " hmm... i did something today! "
tats a really really gud feeling !
awww

den i help mum,
i wash my hat,
i done something tat i wanted to do long ago but havent complete
phew ~
such a relief !

after all these i take a good shower
i was exhausted and tired
but it was valuable :)



xxxxxxxxx



tis morning till afternoon i do my chores
i feel so happy n relax after doin it

but now,
at nite,
i feel soo down after watchin news n an interview show n tv
i dont understand wat im watchin' at
i dont un wat they're talkin about
i dont un wat they're tryin to present to da audience (me)
perhaps im weak in english
or mayb im weak in da sense of hearing
where i cant catch up fast like others do :(

my parents said " how come u dont un ? "
ewww, it hurts .. haiz
im not a genius
im human too
u all understand, good
how old are u guys n how old m i ?
u all learn more than i do
but, is it correct when i blame our age on tis prob ?
i dont know ...

Now i knw tat ::
when u try 2 do something tat u dont know,
it is tiring n it require more energy
=(

Anyhow,
i gotta improve
improve improve, n improve !!


Oh god,
give me wisdom
n improve my hearing
make me catch up faster day by day
n be a genius one day ...
hehee
Amen ~


YinG~21# here

2010 spm

Spm had started today..

ytd nite i sms-ed danny, samson & samuel to wish them...
n a day b4 ytd,
i phoned hosea to wish him too
he picked up da phone vry quickly,
but unfortunately he was busy :(

i didnt msg farrah (mama) & ily doesnt mean i forget u all... hehe
i hope all of u will do well in spm

guys n gurls, grab all Apples !!
pray 4 u all ...

ALL THE BEST !!!


YinG~21#

Year-end holidays

Its 2010 year end long holidays
i thought it will be fun
i thought i will be very busy
but its all not

its so boring here !
although had many things tat i havent complete
n i told myself i wana do it,
i failed ...

I just feel so lazy to do it
boringgg !
n i find many many excuse to not to do it ...
wat la me....!
hate la

i feel so useless tis holidays
i did nothing !!
i didnt do anything useful
i did not help in da house
just sleep, watch tv, play, online, chat ..
n it rotates n rotates like a merry go round .....
haiz ~

i dont care u la cheryl lim !
u gotta do all ur chores in tis holiday itself !!
its a must !
huhuu

u told me,
let by gone be by gone ?
is it b4 tis i lazy so now i gotta work out ?
or is it b4 tis i had study 3 years, 3 years non-stop so now i gotta take a rest ?
idk la..
haih

God,
i hope tat u will take my laziness away,
let me complete all my work in my list-to-do
i wish tat i can use tis holiday wisely
n had a meaningful holiday
:)


YinG~21#

Dissapointment

Because u're my best fren,
i care so much bout u
i think i shud not listed u as my best fren
so tat i wouldnt care too much bout u
n tat i would not get hurt by u

It is soo clearly be seen
it can be seen since long time ago
even since b4 pmr
just tat i dont realise it !
im such a dumb !!

I've been askin u da same ques for several times,
it is obviously seen
but u deny it in front if me !
why?
cant u be honest 2 me?
i had admited everything
even da most important secret 2 me
im sorry for haziq
he didnt seems like angry though,
but how he really thinks i dont know ...

u gave him da superr nice bookmark tat i actually asked u to reserve it 4 me
its alrite ...

next, u gave him keychain
i saw it n when i signal to u,
u seems dont care n tryin 2 escape frm tat situation
well, i understands ..

u told me tis time u gona keep tat keychain
but well,
unluckily,
i saw it again on him
are u gona knock ur head tat i saw it ?!

wats all tis? i dont understand !
not clear enuf huh ?!
hey, y so shy ? im ur fren man !

put aside all these gifts,
wat about " i love you " ? huh ?
wat u gonna say now ?

wat about tat personal chat ?
u hide it !
i did not ask u,
becuz i knew it already ...
u was willing to leave us just 2 have tat
n tat was long
u only replied " bye " when someone gonna leave
all these showed tat u're by HIS side !
not us anymore
ur heart is all THERE
duh~

i understand ...
i understand ...
im not breaking u all
i didnt disagree
im not blaming
i just want u to admit n u dun wana do tat !
wat is so hard ?
scared huh?
dont know ?
nonsense !
im furious as long as u did not admit
i dont know why n it is just like tat
n i dont need u to do tat now cuz i dont wana know

stupid !!!
im not caring anymore
im not goin out
u go by ur own
arghh ~


Anonymous
can i dont write my name here ?

Good fren of mine

Finally i found a good fren
can say 1st male gud fren i guess
wao, amazing..

I take it as a gud fren though, mayb he didnt think like I do
HE console me n praise me
not like haziq who always tease n blame on me
haiz ~

Everything was so coincident
he threw ice on me till i got no idea wat 2 do
he make me fall
in a day !
wat the...
it was painful !
but its alrite..
hahaah

He said he'll take care of me
he's not a "good" person,
not responsible
not trustable
but he's good in another way,
it depends on what...
he was good to me :)

Thanks my fren !
u did make me happy =D

I hope u'll be a better person..


YinG~21#

Asian games final

It's asian games final tdy, men single...
chong wei vs lin dan
Lin Dan won
fuhh~
i heard dat tis was da 1st time he won gold medal in asian games

nex asian games dunno chong wei will be takin part anot..
hope got le..
can see him again
he havent get gold medal in tis game ler

btw, i likeee 2 see lin dan man !
he's adorable
aww ~
cute n handsome at da same time

the end of badminton ...


YinG~21#

Jamuan kelas 3A - 16.11.10

Annual jamuan kelas for 3A was held in rwg pizza hut
Around 28 person attended
n haziq not from our class came too
hmm..
it was fun tat day

we had 8 pizzas all 2gether
garlic breads
n mushroom soups
pepsi / 100 plus i think
n tats all ..

unfortunately about quarter of our classmates didnt attend
huhuu
they had their own reasons... :(
We just eat, chit chat n take photoss especially
we took photoss everywhere
no matter in or outside pizza hut, on da road, in shopping mall, or mac'd
ayooo ~

After pizza me n some classmates went parkson ...
me n jane went into qiant buy snacks ! xD
den we move on to macd
they online there
after makan den go bustop n head 2 bch

It was not so fun when someone spyin on me
arghh! stupid laa
i still take my time :)
duh~

Tats the end of da day xp
Those who didnt went there can read tis post
hehee


YinG~21#

Dewan Siswa & Dewan Masyarakat

Hello girls, yx here. Have any interest in reading majalah Dewan Siswa and Dewan Masyarakat? Both magazines are very good. Besides bm (factual and narrative) essays that use high-leveled vocab, they contain other subjects like SPM bm, English, physics, biology, mathematics etc. the notes given are very useful too.

I would like to share the magazines and the payment if possible, because the total amount for the two magazines is RM 97.20 for 12 months. Yet I don't think we are able to pass around the magazines during year end holidays, so I'll pay for the last 2 months, which are Nov n Dec:-

(RM 97.20 / 12) x 10 months = RM 81.00 (this will be the amount we share)

If we share this payment, we don't have to pay so much individually to gain knowledge from both magazines throughout our year of form 4. Send sms to me if interested.

Between, HAPPY HOLIDAYS sweeties ^^

Best Wishes,

Yixin.

Suffer in life

U're quite handsome
kinda cute
honest mayb
n can keep secret
but u can be quite boring
not funny
hmm....

Mayb im the one who attracts u,
u took da 1st step,
n i continue the other
n mayb, i gotta stop now !

It was all like wat i've thought of
u really likes HER
i revealed ur secrets tat u tried 2 hide
i asked u,
u likes HER b4?
u said yes
n i asked again,
do u still likes her now?
u said now is "like" as frens

Was all u said is true? i wonder..
wheneva i ask u bout these
u demand me to stop n change topic....
means?
actually u're revealing dat u stil likes her
u ask me 2 stop talkin bout tis,
so tat u would stop thinkin of her, right?!

I shud not be so dumb again
i shud not treat u as gud as tis
i shud stop my steps
n mayb let it be how it will be..

For a few times i think of giving up of u
it just came in my mind whenever im jealous
its suffering !
but now,
i really wants 2 giv up
i dont wan tis 2 happen again

If u talk or find me,
i will reply
if not,
gud bye then ...


YinG~21#

Genting trip (9th of Nov 2010)

3A class teacher, sir sundara purposely planned a genting trip 4 our class after pmr..
tis plan was even planned b4 pmr... :)
Earlier planned 2 overnite thr 4 1 nite
but it was not a success..

Finally da day 2 go 2 genting came
On tat day all participants hav 2 came early 2 sch..
cuz we gona leave early n back late!
wahaha

Unfortunately,
we start our jouney late
delayed for 1 hour
u noe why?
cuz principal dont allow us 2 go 2 da bus until everyone wear sch's sport shirt or uniform..
zadao lor
bring down da mood nia + waste money
ishh
Nway, after reaching a petrol station we all get down n chg our clothes... muahaha
all wear dao leng leng..

All of us played so many things
1st of all we went 2 ply pirate ship
swing played 2 round liao
elephant
bumper car
bowling
wat else huh? cant rmb edy....

We had buffet 4 lunch
9 of us in 1 table
whole table full wit plates
waiter aso cum n clean up several times ady
hahahah
actually i think tat da food thr ma ma dei only
n not so hygienic aso
plates, forks n spoons aso not very clean....
mayb bcuz old liao? hehee

Too bad,
on dat day many theme park games were closed due 2 maintenance or repair
especially roller.. didnt open
manda soo sad.. she wana play tat sooo muc! can also say daaa mosttt!
hahhha
nvm lar.. nxtime can go again de... hehee

We dont hav enuf time 2 play 2nd round bowling n gold cart
so bs, i play bowling keep go longkang! ishhh!!
wat happen la? ugh..
I n mx x sempat play da throw bangle into bottle
cant get big bear! T^T

However, tis genting trip was damn fun!
each n everyone of us enjoyed it so muc!!
it's memorable~

YinG~21#

ANTI

Its anti- time!
I gotta anti bad things in me
start from now....

Sleep early
no angry face
no rude
no tease
only praise
only funny
smile alwis
no sos
sincere

U can do so if u're willing to~

YinG~21#

Before goin genting

Me n my classmates n my frens are goin 2 genting 2 days more!
we were all eager even b4 pmr,
we waited for so long ady
n some of us keep thinking abt it,
n planned wat to do at tat day etc...

But now,
i had no feeling bout it
i was like dont wana go ady
bcuz of so many things
1stly, our class tcher didnt explain properly
n gave us the letter on the eleventh hour
peh almost not going ady
its like, we go there cuz we had paid for it..
it seems like no more excited feeling =(
2ndly, u can see the news
almost everyday got bus accident news
do u think its save?
im not cursing..
God please protect me whenever I am...

En Sundara told me we are going bowling, then snow house, then buffet lunch...
my dad said snow house would be wet..
n games aso will wet (he mean theme park maybe..)
hav 2 bring extra clothes go...

I wana wash my sch bag 2day
so tat its clean n i can put my clothes 2 bring 2 genting
but
2day whole day no sun
plus morning started 2 rain ady
i couldnt do so
how? wat bag can i bring? haiz~
no idea.....

Tmrw is monday
n im going 2 sch
mayb tcher gona giv taklimat or do's n donts'
so im goin 2 listen =)
n it will be the 2nd day for peh 2 go sch after pmr
see u tmr!

Going 2 bed
YinG~21#

Lonely?

it was a bad bad day for me, yesterday morning

after receiving the bad 'news'

i made a call to rachel,

she consoled me, she suggested ideAs for me

she made me feel better and warm

thx my deaR

from the different aspect, i cursed You..

im sorry for doing that

maybe it is the consequence of being passing the 'news'

it had been added, some 'salts' and 'vinegar' parhaps

i said, i hate you!

but i didnt mean it now

anyway, im wondering, why you should have do something like this?

it will never be any lost in you if u never opened up ur mouth and tell

and at last, the fact was fake!

just like what had happened in 2 years ago.

how could u feel if people blame you yet nothing u have done?

maybe i did say something like tat, but i never said wat u have told

and this morning, daddy n bro woke me up

they said, the piano is sending here soon

wake up!

hmm.. i didnt feel anything instead of being happy until jumping all the way round

when they sent my old piano away, i felt sad, i felt crying

old one gone, and the new one came

although it is much more better than the old one

but still, i havent have feeling with it

when i played it, i did a lot of mistakes

including on the song i have familiar with

maybe the feeling have to be fostered

and, i feel like crying

after listening to ur words

i told papa, i will try my best to succeed, and

try not to dissapoint him

he replied, its okay la jane, papa love u ma

he asked me dont need to think too much

he already fulfilled my n his own demand

and he is now satisfied! nothing to be worried about

thank u papa! i love you! i love you from my deep heart core

until the end of my life, until the end of this world

after that, papa gave me a call

he told me, xi tian attended her 1st piano class 2day

and when she got home, she saw somebody carrying something into her hse

wondering wat was it

she was shocked and happy when she saw she own a piano!

haha im happy for that! and i realized

giving is happier than receiving ! =)

no wonder papa is so happy, because he haD given me a piano!

no matter how, i will work hard on it and make the decision worth!

LOVE YOU!

HJane-Khoo <3

Deepavali + funfair outing

2day is deepavali!! =D
thamai ajak go her house
we go her hse eat tosei n chit chat + take photo
after tat we go bac 2 jane's hse
sit awhile
den walk 2 azril's hse
phew~ imagine, we went 2 3 houses in a day!
hahahah

At nite,
me, jane, nik & azril went 2 fun fair
we saw amirul zafry, his sis n bro there
oh ya, n nik's bro too...

we played bumper car, the boat n the "turn turn" hahahah
da boat was quite scary... cuz 1st time sitting dat
n da turn turn was very....................dizzy!
i feel alright when turning
but after coming down 4 awhile, starting 2 dizzy
abit wana vomit
haiz~

but it was fun today,
i shouted so loud when plyin boat
paiseh~ haahah
but it was really a great way 2 release stress!
especially after pmr xp


Fun day
YinG~21#

YOU

Thinkin of it,
i feel impossible
i feel shock
i feel miserable as well

Actually,
im not da only one who threat u well
dont u feel tat thr's many out there who cares abt u?

Anyway,
i feel happy tat u find me when u're down
though we're not close enuf
though we meet only twice
n though we chat only several times

I tried 2 console u
i dunno whether it works 4 u
but its all my best
i wish i could help u
i hope u knew it

U're cute, adorable n funny
u had a gud impression in me,
since da 1st time we met
i feel curious when i see u there alone
why u are owis alone?
i wanted 2 ask....

I hope i doesnt fall 4 u duh~

[ur life was not wonderful becuz of my late existance,
now, im here to solve ur probs ]

-falling 4 eu-
YinG~21#

BBQ 3/11/2010

BBQ at rachel's hse ytd..
got pn tai, jane, manda, rachel, crystal, vivien, ys, yx, ah chai, li ting (chel's sis), jon, lam, kenny, andrew, n more fren i x kenal....
sorry if i missed out anybody.. too many xD

quite fun..
ate alot of food....
chic wing, balls, sausage, snacks, jelly.........

but 1 most important part..
when we play true/dare...
its not so nice
some of us even cried.. ( ys, ah chai, mx )
sorry i say out let u all feel paiseh... hehee

yun shin asked me 1 ques when i chose TRUE
da ques is ::
who gave u tat keychain n why u wana received it?
of cuz hav 2 say da truth wan la rite?
so i said it
but now
i feel regret
i shud not had said "tat" name since i can say nickname!!
ishh.. i didnt thought of dat ma.. haiz~
n i accepted tat keychain cuz it juz left there..
how can i return?
hehe

n i think after tat ys asked me 1 more,
did u like him b4?
n i said...
last time
means.. got b4 lor?
ishh! stupid la me
wat la
tat one is additional ques ar?
not neccessary have 2 answer summore de wor.....
y i go n answer?
i can reject tat ques!! aiya!
u see i really s2upid =(

when she asked me,
n b4 i answer her ques...
i was about 2 cry
but i was able 2 overcome it from falling
haiz
but i really dunno y i wana cry
not bcuz of wat u all thinking ar...
mayb cuz i dun wana answer

got tcher leh..
aiyoo~
suan liao lor..
dunwan say aso say liao lor
dunwan they noe aso noe liao lor
wat 2 do?!
let it as a medium tat pull us closer ba~

Enjoy~
YinG~21#

lol..

today stay at home quite boring..

hmph~but when morning i suddenly thinked about this year's merentas desa..

actually i think myself with smktd2 have quite alot of fate der..

things happen til very accurate..

ngam2 daddy suddenly went oversea n i had to change school from segar to smktd2..

suppose to change school to segar when f3 but segar was full n mummy made final decision to let me stay..

isn't it becuz of fate?fate bring everyone of 38gang into my life..

see..like merentas desa n orientation..

i actually couldnt join these activities de..

but God makes me meet 38gang..

and you all really helped me alot..

erm..thx chai for fetch me to bus stop almost everday..

thx mx for let me have a place to wait my mum..^^

thx jane for everytime when i had problem of transport or anything else..

she will be the first one hu stand out and offers me to stay at her house..

thx for rachel too..she offer to let me overynight at her house too..

thx manda for tat time she offer me to wait at her shop..

thx for wy..sometimes she's the one who can make me laugh..xDespecially moral period..issit?xD

thx for yun shin..for owiz beat me n willing to listen to me n make me laugh too..>

n thx for yi xin for willing to help me n all of us when we're facin trouble in our studies~

without you all i dont noe how to have such a memory full of happiness~~xD

i feel grateful~!

THANK YOU 38GANG!!

_________________________________________________________________

back to today..after i thinked alot of this nonsense but meaningful things..

oh ya~!merentas desa..!!

den i suddenly feel wanna exercise..

i ran the whole house..

erm..20minutes got gua..

haha~~and soooo long time i dint reli exercise dy..n sweat so much dy..

so shuang ~!..haha..

hope next year i can join merentas desa n orientation again la..

and alot alot of activities!!!!hmph~

38gang reli made alot of activities dy..if want me count out..u all will read til zZZZ xDhaha!!

and sorry that i couldnt make it there to the bbq party tmr..

nvm~~i believe our fate wont stop at here..

stil got many chances 1..

u all enjoy ya!!^^..

haha kla..long post..bubye!!xD love ya ~!!

SPY~!!^^

Singin' contest 2010

2010 singin competition in sch had just over
my group, me, jane & manda got 2nd prize
hehe
we were shivering at tat time
but tried our best =)

Kai xin got grand prize! woohooo~
1st time see her sing
her voice is so soft n sweet + stable
admire her lovely voice ♥

During talent contest pulak,
got many types of talent presentation..
got magic show, dancing, ballet, ribbon dance n musical instrument

walao i really admire tat boy tat present a dance
lim wei shen i think? f2 de
he dance quite good
i love dat part where his dance movements matches da music perfectly
i see till "whoa!"
too bad i missed da part he fell on da ground =(

it can be considered as a great day..
everyone had enjoy the fun!


happy~
YinG~21#

im feeling warm!

hey, so happy to see rachel's post here

ya, exactly, this blog is just only visited by me n wen ying n sometimes peh peh

seems like it had been neglected by some of u! do rmb me, the blog shouted! haha

hey purple boy!

i should have to express my appreciation and thousand of thanks to you

recently, u have given me a lot!

when i was alone, u gave me an accompanied

when i was in dark, u lighted the surrounding of mine

when i was in misery, u delighted me and pleased me

when i was in hunger, u rushed me to eat

haha, arent it cute?

although i had many of my first time with many one around me

but still, there r many 1st time between me n you

i never thought of tat too

this is exactly a very pure relationship

it doesnt contain any extra salt or vinegar

it just having a moderate amount of everything

it is pure! and slightly sweet? perhaps.. =p

i never knew tat i had being appreciated

i had being liked, loved, and cared

i appreciate you! for watever u had given to me

to me, im just a very very simple girl, a girl that doesnt have very wonderful looking

neither very awesome voice, very great brain, very nice attitude, very good behavior

that s why i felt curious whenever i gain ur attention

anyway, i just wanted to say,

Thank You for everything From you To Me! =)

hey gurls, 2moro we gonna have singing competition!

i dont feel scare neither worry

how??! should it be good or the way different?

hmm... just take it easy, like what u did at home, in the karaoke, with ur crazy friends! jumping on the sofa, shouting until our throat were in sore

just do it for whatever you can do! jia you! hwaiting!

KHJ! I LOVE YOU..

i mean, kim hyun joong! im sick of you

haha

thats it! bye friends, love ya!

HJane-Khoo<3