Im still Thinking

2day my papa n mami went to alor star, and thx to wen ying n rachel!

they accompanied me the almost for the whole day

me n wen ying successfully made our mushroom soup! it was the nicest, among every dishes we had made b4..

and just now, was chatting with ying, found that my situation is exactly same as hers

i felt relief and quite relax n happy when we came to a same opinion and topic

i was thinking hardly, should i really bring him into my life?

i didnt mean to hurt anyone, especially him

im worry, if next time i might be different, i might change,

how would it be to You?

anyway, i would really like to thank You

although i never showed it out, i appreciate you very much

u have changed, u tried a lot to make me happy, and just to see me smile

thanks a lot for that!

and im afraid, my feeling to you is just a kind of sympaty

i didnt mean that too, but it just flow according to my feeling, my wish

if lets say, one day, i get to know that, u have fallen in love to somebody but not me

i think i might feel sad, but still i will hope that both of you can stay happy without my interruption.

Ying, thx a lot too

sometimes, you have indirectly given me a lot

your family, yourself

although we may be have some quarrel or misunderstanding for certain time

yet i appreciate for ur contribution to me, as a small part of your life

Rachel, there are also a lot of 'thank you' have to be sent to ur ears from my heart

thank you to ur mami, ur family, and mainly you

you dont need to feel guilty for what u have done or wat decision you have made

i believe that, every human being will do mistake, or wrongly took decision

but once you have decided to do so, just continue it!

i know it must be a hurt to others,

but 'by law', u arent really did something wrong

from my deep heart core, i hope you will gain happiness for what are u doing right now

Manda, i have just read ur blog

ya, i admit that i used to blame you for not attending some of our event

yet, im the one who neglected you!

i didnt realize that you dont like such event when there are strangers there

i will try my best to fulfill ur demands

and sorry for my mistakes ok?

All the best to all of you ya!

i aint liking you all, but I LOVE YOU ALL!

*Jane23*