yessss !

yessss its holiday !
wahahahaha
finally finish our monthly test
hope everything will be alrite
dont fail sej !

after holiday goto face resultss again
wooo.. scary ~

happy holidaysss to all

- mimi - (;

cross country - My hero !

tdy my sch had cross country
my num was 404 !
i dont really like tis num ..
but tis okay ..
tis is reality

I ran abit faster at the beginning ,
den feeling stomach pain (like gastric type of pain) , seriously
i couldnt run anymore
couldnt even walk fast
tat was absolute pain !

people started to overtake me
if i did not had tat pain ,
i mayb could present better
tis is wat we call omnpotence i guess ?
so wats the conclusion ?
i got da 44th place lo ....

felt so dissapointed by it
i had prac for months , n the time i've contributed
but it all doesnt works ! argh
but at least i've improved compared to da previous year
n luckily i didnt let these bring me down :)
glad abt tat
haih


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n everything is so coincident today ..
jane n i had faced the same situation
cant believe i talk to haz
can say tis is da 1st time talkin wit him wit peh's companion i think
nth la ..
juz askin wat num he got
i really dont believe he got no.90 leh
he got prac wan wor ..
but really, practice dont guarantee anything ..
haih its okay

n we sat at a place
so ngam !
without any plan
oh so lucky

insane hot sun !
invited to sit in front bcz of hot sun , but i dint go coz wit frens xD
but i realise i couldnt be like tis !
argh
damn hot
every year also like tat

n another thing ,
nik sarah was dutied to return our koko card ,
she called out my name n i was sitting in rmh kuning xP
so i quickly stand up n reach up to her when i heard my name
dint realise how long she had been calling my name
but i know its not too long
so sorry
but i did try to call u , n u did not look at me !
whose fault is tis actually ?!

she call n call
i heard her
n i went near
last time she called ,
" lwy , 4a1 ! who ?! dont want tis card i throw it away ! "
wat ?
stupid doe !!
throw my card ? throw la ! i report 2 tcher
wat an impatient gurl ..
the most just skip it la !
so rude !
s2pid !!
ishh ..
she make me so fish !
damn funny ? laugh ! ish fish dao
im being teased i guess
duh ~

the students keep talking n looking
was wondering wat they're talkin abt
tat gang keep looking at us
even belinda aso ?
gosh ..
she talked to me wor .. so long didnt talk wit her n now she auto talk 2 me ?
woooah
hmm .. feeling weird n curious ..
feel like they're talkin at our back
:((

after sch ,
me n jane went n ask belinda wat da gang in front of her was talking abt
isit talkin bout us coz they keep looking here ?
she acted strangely ..
n she said no
we think she's lying ....

came home,
i slept 4 3 hours !
damn tired after run ..
den i chat wit nik adibah thru fb
so ngam she on , tats my chance to ask her !
she xplain
oh ... yuan lai ..
hope wat she said is true nway
thanks 2 b honest
n dont misunderstand ya :)


Turn n look

YinG~21#

Moving to asrama

Today was the last day schooling in smktd2 for a few frens , my classmates

Allysa, Fatin Athirah, Syarfanis, Haziq malik, and Najihah

Zairi is goin to mrsm too .. but not so soon

n Nabillah is shifting back to tasik puteri

Hmm.. tdy last class was bio

luckily ckgu yusra end the class earlier

and so we could wish n say goodbye to our frens who will be leaving ...

of course thr's tears , laughter , sadness :((

but we should encourage them to move towards their dreams !

Dont fear , my frens

U know u can and i believe u can do it !

u can manage everything in ur life + studies

dont afraid of education

dont scared of surrounding

Take care my frens !

Will miss all of u

Study hard

play hard

When u're bac , lets meet !

haha

Keep in touch yaww !

I will rmb u all alwayssss

YinG~21#

Photo sharing II

Hmm.. just wana share some photos here :)

wana share tis long time ago ..

He was shy coz takin his pics ... haha

Is he cute ? =D

Haha .. he's totally cute ! he looks like a fren of mine

I loveeeeee .. heeee

Nice dog print ? =)

Jane n my cap ... bought 2gether

Tikets in a day ! ktm, movie & bus .. haha

Alpha & Omega movie ticket ..

Thats all ...

haha

feeling lame ?

hope not

Thanks 2 jane who helped me upload these pics

and tats the pic during outing end of 2010

its memorable ~

YinG~21#

Dr. Bernard Low

Guess who ?
he's my dentist ..
today i went for check-ups and so absent for sch

After doc finish checking n tightening my braces
As usual, he will return my appointment card
but today
he added some words
he said
he wont be here anymore
there will be another doctor
there will be changes in specialist
TAKE CARE OF UR BRACES ...
so.. we wont giv the appointment date
we will call
not so fast , mayb few / 2 months
i look into his eyes ..
finally i said ..
thank u doc !

i felt tat his words are coming frm da heart
he speaks sincerely !
especially those words in capital touched me

I was stunt
i m shock wit tis news
which came out frm his own mouth
i did not think of tis day will happen before
i didnt think tat one day i might not see him again ..
i dont know where he is going
idk much abt him ...
shud i ? or shudnt ?
haih

i dont want !
im gona mis him
goshh ...

i felt like crying when typing tis post .. :((
but
however it is ,
i gota wish him gud luck n be happy
no matter where u work at
mayb there's a better job 4 u
or better working place u will be at
hope u will enjoy n stay happy at ur new surrounding
bless u ~

hope one day we will meet again somewhere
though i know tat the chance is tiny
wish we could keep in touch
i will always rmb
tat u're my doc
the friendly one
u're da one who set up my braces at the first place

thanks 4 informing me abt ur absence ,
so tat i wun be shock when i did not see u again
at least i knew smthin' and to be prepared
thanks 4 da service n good treat all these while
Thanks 4 everything !

How good it is if i can hav ur phne num ...
for consultant in da future
as im goin for dentistry ..
huhu
:(

Hope to meet in future
plz rmb me
or let me rmb u
so tat when one day i see u
on the street ,
i can greet u =D
Great thanks to doc bernard ♥
u indirectly made a change in ma life


♥
YinG~21#

Jbiest !

I just saw a news bout justin bieber !
saying his haircut was costly ($750) ! haha
omg ..
whenever or wherever i saw him ,
i will likeeee him so so deep ..
huhu

he's never say never theme was purple
he wore purple jacket n shoe !
gosh ...
i loveeee it !! ♥

he's voice is so .. nice n special
he's features is so .. cute
he's so .. talented
ooomg
i want him !

he's coming m'sia for concert in april ?!
1st time coming to msia !
welcome jb ~
wooooh
i wish i can see him ..
not in concert ..
but myb when he attend conference or qian chang hui or smthing lik tat ..
promoting maybe ?
hehe

He symbolise sweet memories
I love u jb !
4eva ♥
=D


YinG~21#

School days

Finally i could steal some time for posting here ..
i thought of posting earlier but couldnt do so coz too busy
busy wit studies, curriculum, tuition, homeworks, outing, relatives ..
hm ...
im packed wit chores !

I will squeeze everything i wanted to write in tis post
so tis will be a long long post
muahaha

Start from first day of sch ...

as usual, orientation, every year !
n tis is my 4th year of orientating ..
i got da SAME station game --- spider web
where i did it last year
but tis year
i partner wit fatasya n jia wen =)
i feel like, im more daring to talk in front of crowd
n giving instructions
im more strict
i guess bcoz im not too shy again
coz i had 3 years experients
hehe
and aliff asked me to be more strict
haih kesian them aso
i think they shocked when im strict wit them
its a game wert, y gota be so strict ? i wonder ..

__________________________


on da 2nd day of + maths tuition was the happiest n joyfulest tuition eva !
so fun though
true, + maths is hard sometimes ..
n can be quite confusing ..
but,
when u get hold of them
u cant stop doing it !
i mean ..
the joy when u knew u get the right answer !
the feeling of success
is so so great to express
and of course, thanks to jc ! haha =D

________________________


Sch reopen, and sure got ko-ko lor
n im still same, green, p.puteri n p.bahasa ..
but tis year got 1 xtra activity which is sukan --- badminton
looking forward 4 it ! huhuhu

finally i get da chance to ply basketball in sch !
the new basketball equipment tat i first time using it !
wooohooo ~
its so fun plyin wit frens
i wana play again !
hope for another chance
heee

_____________________________________


ytd ah chai come bac !
38 gang had a small party 4 her
at pn tai's house !
hahahaha
we chit chat,
and took picha at pn tai's garden
wit her new n nice grass ! haha
had a good time there
playing ..
talking ..
n 1st time listen to rachel plyin her guitar
haha
keep it up !

yeah ~
we spent time together
we specially made tis party 4 chai
long time no see ah chai ady ! haha
nxt time when u come bac, we meet again ya !
miss ya :)

_____________________________


tmr is monday again ..
another week
means gota go sch again ..
hm ..
monday i will go home only at 6 pm !
imagine , im at sch for almost 12 hrs !
fuuuh
sch is my 2nd home zZzz

Goin to nik's hse later ..
makan2 for i dunno wat reason ?
mayb bcz few of them goin for asrama ?
hmm
bubye for now !


YinG~21#

Genting holidays photo sharing

Honey bee ?

Me n the strawberry fountain :)

Bee exhibition centre on the way out

Mom n sis picking strawberries

Green, unripe strawberries

Strawberries rack where we pick from there

Sorry my post entitled " genting trip " tat was reserved for me is not complete

sorry ya

mayb i cant write stories bout my genting trip ady

sch is reopen and i might be busy

huhu :(

i share some pics wit u all here = )

hehe ..

i went for strawberry picking

my 1st time though

so u can see most of my pic is in the farm ;)

btw, i dont know how to adjust my pic here !

so complicated

at the first place i wana put all the pictures below the words ....

but failed to do so..

haiz ~

cant put much pic here ..

so check out my fb for more pichas ! =D

thanks yaw !

YinG~21#

Perfect match

I cant stop writing....
sorry to say tat
u're actually not suitable
for me especially
u're totally diff

I can see u expect alot
u expect everything to be so perfect n beautiful
u expect more n more
how would it be when u cannot expect high ?
when u couldnt effort to expect ?

Im not like u
where u can spent thousand or nearly 2 thousand a day
it is shocking
idk whether add up or alone
i dunno wat can i say abt u
speechless

I like 2 c u wit ur jacket on
it just feel so comfortable , save
if i can put that on....
aww, how can i get the chance to?
:(

I know u had changed
when u didnt find me autoly
neither text or fb
it shows tat u didnt think of me .
u make me take 1st action
i text u den u reply
if not , no news bout u
i told maself to let u text first
but i alwis broke my promise
i cant stop the first msg !
argh ~
n when u only say a few words
i know u dont wana talk much
or tell me much abt u
im ur best fren u said
and tats true

A best fren tat u talk sw to ?
a best fren who u call r ?
i didnt expect all of ur family knwing bout her
i even dk tat they not only didnt disagree but she bcame a popular girl
oooh, now i know,
tats da main reason u cant get rid of her, i guess

On ur appearance,
no one could realise whr's she in ur heart
how u feel
how concern of u
but i see it !
i can see how confuse she made u
how suffer
how u've been hurt by her
me as well ,
when i see all these
i bcome priceless compare to her
i realise my position
im nothin when compared wit her

U said im in ur dream
im in ur heart mind n soul
i love the way u lie is a song
u lied to hav u
a bad liar !

fortunately,
i found a solution
which is to act da same way like u did
i get rid of him
so i can get rid of u as well !
i must be determined
and control
for some day
i will success !



2 diff worlds
- dg -

LAST DAY of 2010

2011 is coming ......

today is 31st dec 2010
last day in 2010 ...

recall my days in 2010 ,
time flies swiftly
pmr year especially
busy wit studies
curriculum
prs
pps
everything ..

piles n piles of homeworks
packed schedule of tuitions
really busy
without realising time had gone so fast

and now
pmr had over
i really miss the days just after pmr
where i can play and enjoy maself
where i can choose to go to sch or not
where i can go outing wit frens , clasmates
haiz ~

i want pmr again :)
then i can enjoy free days again
hahahaha
how nice it is, rite ?

nex year would be a tough year
goin to face new subjects
goin to face new people
old school ,
but gota adapt wit new situations, new rules

prepare for orientation
confident for exams
fuuuh !
i must say
I CAN DO IT !

be happy and ready ,
as u say :
happy-go-lucky = )
i will remember tat !

forget unlucky days in 201o
and lets be 2011 a lucky year


let by gone be by gone
YinG~21#

That should be Me

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreadin' bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you did with me,
Does she love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me
Cause baby I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe that
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you used that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
What you doin' to me
You're taking him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
It's working cause you know that

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe
That should be me

I need to know should I fight for love
Or disarm
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong
I can't go on
Till you believe that
that should be me

(Holding your hand)
That should be me
(The one making you laugh (oh baby oh))
That should be me

That should be me
(Giving you flowers)
That should be me
(Talking for hours)
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me

* Edited -- the song " that should be me "


I remember the time u hold my hands, make me laugh
I remember u said buying me gifts
U said u will give me flowers
shud it be u who talk hours wit me ?

Where is it ?
its all a fake promise
u're not responsible
or did i misunderstood u ?
no idea

tis is so sad
u broke my heart
where's my answer ?
i've been waiting 4 it
u gave a lame excuse
n i noe u're tryin to escape

I dont need answer now
coz i know wat u think
n wats in ur heart
and so
im goin to leave u
im will pull myself frm u
i cant go on like tis

u're the right tea
though u're not as handsome
but u're ..
good as wat i can say

now
im goin to giv up my tea
where we've to queue for hours to buy it
i rather dont try it
than waiting there foolishly

im not in ur eyes, neither in ur heart
i cant replace ur 1st her,
and even couldnt beat ur 2nd her
im the last of the last
though u thought bout me
but not only me
i want to be the one n only
since u cant do it
so i wana blow the whistle
stop now
its game over

im honest in everything
i didnt deny u're not
n u're better than others when u giv reasons before escaping frm my ques
but wat i wana say ,
dont be afraid ,
dont afraid ...
hurt is a must
but i will be better in time
surely will
:)


That should be me
YinG~21#

Secret of hyacinth

Im a glass
therefore my appearance is invisible
same as for u

Im just temporary replacement for u
im just her or her replacement
tis is not i wanted to be

I know im not da lime light
when u doesnt look at me
when u doesnt crave for my appearance
when u doesnt take courage for textin me
when u leave me every nite
when u didnt keep a single msg of mine
Why is tis ?
u kept her msg ..
i wonder if ur inbox is always empty ?

I wait for ur msg every single day
but im the one who started every msg
sorry for being unmanner..

Like wat u noe, i really like u
and i meant it
im not the one who wish u first
im not ur first
but i hope im ur last

u make me one less lonely girl
but u doesnt make me one lucky gurl
I want a daily report frm u
but u doesnt think of doin any

U said she forgot u
at the same time
i noe u r meaning,
u still likes her, right ?

at ur right hand is her
and ur left hand is me ?
deyh , im not a fool !

all ur sweet words is just a fool
u're tryin to poison me huh ?
if u doesnt meant it, dont say !
dont make me feel lonely
dont make me feel angry
dont make me hard to lose u

come on !
tell me wat u want
tell me wat u think
i noe u confuse of urself though

i wan companion, not separation

As the secret of hyacinth says
to make the hyacinth flower to blossom for the 2nd time,
cut off the leaves..
cut the leaves off means forget the past
n prepare for the blossom
can u do tat ?
idk


Hyacinth
Jay-b
YinG~21#

A Post To Rachel

i've been missing at here for a long time dy~

and the 1st post im going to post when i'm back is to talk about 2 guys?!

hope my girls..u all wont mind.. =)

ah Rachel..

honestly , when i first saw your blog i felt surprise..

I mean..i dont know thing goes on like this..

i thought u like Irwin n Chris..n so on?

And what i know bout them is only they are 2 boys that very talented in guitar~

but..

i dont even talk to them face to face before..

Even though we had joined the same camp at November..

but we dint speak to each other at all wor..

all i know about them is that "Oh , this 2 guys are the guitarist!" during PnW time..

then continue sing sing sing..dint realize they're from ur church also..

btw , i believe u had a great time when outing with them..

but i dont think i know him as much as you do..right??

what i feel glad about is that 2 of them are christian!

oh my mum always wanted me to make more chritian frens~

but bout Love leh.at this time i wan 保持沉默~

now is not the right time~ haha!

they said when u are with your love one..

you will feel like u're on top of the world..

how bout others' sights ?! Who cares!!!xD haha

and i know it's the feeling when ur with them..

i think they will be a good friend of u and me..

but i think i can only meet them at next year NSCFL camp la~xDD haha

so make sure u jon next year..

and have fun with the next outing with them ya!!

and thx alot for ur sharing~

sharing ur secrets with me = u care bout me...

cuz sharing is caring ma~~ haha

thanx alot for trusting me ya!!

haha kla..think im gonna bit gudbye here~

38gang..school's going to reopen?

hows u all's feeling??

me very nervous and abit mm seh dak my holiday!!

1st day of scul we have to decide our stream le..

i dont wanna seperate wit u all..

Manda going to Acc class..

den chai shift dy~ haiz

n btw she's going to JB today dy..everyone say gudbye to her =)

bless her 一路顺风~ =)

and scul starts we going to busy with orientation..

hope we'll have fun during the time la !!

kla..see i ngam charm again liao..

haiyoyo..reli x tahan me..haha..kla

TATA~~~~ =D

Ah Peh~ =)

msg to ah peh

ah peh..u noe what?
i start loving to share my secret wit u..
i will alwis wan u to noe 1st abt me..
ex: 'HIM' , irwin, christoper n the others..
bt ofcoz, irwin is the most i talk wit u..
n when ever i saw irwin,it make me think of u ..

n abt HIM ..i din noe that u have relize sumthing abt her..
although its abit hurt bt its alrite..
i have told myself 2011 its a new year ..
i have to reli work for it..
love? i had enough love from GOD .. or myb more than enough..
so y must i need other ppl's love? (i mean couple tat kind of love)
n im sure tat 'ppl's love' wont last long..so y must i suffer of it?
i should resive love from GOD n give love to others..
GOD noe's me the best..
n i trust in him tat he will find a suttable guy for me in future..

okey finish abt love..
nw..abt irwin..i noe u r waiting for it ryte? lol..
i dono how to say bt irwin is a very nice guy u noe..
ytd we went to out n we had a great time..
haha..he talks alot, theres not such word as boring when im with him..
he tells alot of jokes too..he will make sure tat u laugh..lol..
n you noe what!!!!!
i ask him ' seriously, u like her ar?'
u noe what he say??!!
' abit lar ' SHOCK O.o
hahaha..ntg to say d lar..
then after i finish asking tat question he start he ask more abt u..
lyk what ppl r u lar..me n u r good friends ant lar..y i din bring u here lar..zzzzzzz
AH peh!!!! ISH...hahahaha..
then ltr christoper oso start asking ad..
he say ' who? tat ah peh ah? '
lol..then they two start saying ' ah peh talk abt who more?? '
' ofcoz irwin lar..bt she say christoper more leng zai..' lol..happy lar him
suddently u so popular ad in our church..
did u noe tat they 2 very popular de in our church..
nw all the gurl thirst to noe u ad..
lol...jealous dao!!!..

i cant stop talking abt him lar..theres so much more tat u need to noe..



-rachel-

Frust of idiots ?

I saw jane wrote tat she's frustrate over idiots in fbook ..
i wanted to post something like tis in blog here earlier
but doesnt really know how to say n express
after look at wat jane post in fb
i think i know how to write tis post ady

Actually i hav almost same condition as jane
but not really "frust" of "idiots"
mayb mine is some kind of jealousy, hatred
those 3 + 1 gurls
duh ~
they get str8 a's man !
and i shud be happy actually

I know its actually myself who giv me da unpleasant feelings
im the one who think too much n so on
its absolutely not good, i know !
so im tryin 2 eliminate all these
i shud like them although they scored
i shudn't be so selfish
selfish is a self-destroyer !
rawrrr !!


Being a better person
YinG~21#

A B C

U're occupying me
i feel tat i cant resist myself from u
especially after takin pmr results
it feel like
i've accepted ..

we both nervous n afraid
we both crack our head
i went to sch n u greet me
seeing u walkin to me
i dunno wat can i say

pn cik zainun told us 28 str8 a's
and one of them is the sweet person
she again ?
y she keep appearing in my life
even her name also
haih ~
not feeling good

SHE get full a's ?
oh my ...
y everyone tat i wana stay off get 8 a's huh ?
but its alrite
she's my fren
though impleasant wit her
but she pass wit flying colours i shud be happy :)

the feeling after takin pmr results is indeed very bad
i just cant smile or laugh
and doesnt feel like talkin to anybody
just wana stay alone

during tis period of time,
i gotta hav u by my side
in tis time i really find u important
i really want ur comfort n console
but u couldn't help me
tis time u couldn't make me smile :(
its alrite .. u dont hav 2 apologise
i understand
bcz u gota save urself as well
merely ur accompany meant alot to me

u gona leave me to somewhere else
then leave me again n again
i will support u
n we'll be in each other's memory

Im speechless
u got excellent results ?
whoa ! omgossh
congrats !!
ur improvement is really great
so dont be upset
u had gud results
and why are u down ?
i know why ...

I observed ur expression during results announcement
7a's announcement,
u bow down
take a breath
i know
u're thinkin how many a's u can get,
when she get str8 a's ..
and whether u can get further studies
dont worry, be happy !

Thanks dar
for making me feeling better
:)
enjoy ur holidays
and i'll wait 4 u ....


missing
YinG~21#

My PMR result

Get pmr results today ..
i was so scared
i cried because of fear
i had totally no idea about my result

principal said tat thr's 28 candidates get straight a's
pn noraini named out top scorers one by one from 8 a's to 6 a's ..
how i wish tat pn noraini will call out my name as soon as possible
one by one by one by one ....
she had named so many
and none of them is me
i started to feel dissapointed
i feel tat thr's no hope ady
felt like giving up

soon tcher name out 7 a's candidates
azril jefri ! O.O
i had a great shock !
im stil sitting there n he's goin out to take his result slip
awww....
one by one of my fren went out
left me n maxine
max said, sure u go out 1st de la !
just after she say these words n then her named was being called
left me behind, alone waiting in da sitting area
i dunno how to express my feeling at tat time
i was thinking
" im da last person sitting here "
and i cried ...

i got a little little feeling tat my name will be called
and really
it is called
but it is called during 6 a's announcement
i walked out to principal
i feel NOTHING
principal said
nvm, try hard again nex time .... spm
instantly, i cried
and my mum n sis came in front

so many feelings came upon me
i was really really SAD
i feel embarass
i felt guilty
im da least A in my gang
even boys and other classmates which were usually behind
now in front of me, out standing

1st named being called was farrah hazira !
fuyooooh !!
his dad was so proud of her
she cant even believe it herself
wat a nice feeling ....

when zul being called out to take slip
i cried of shock
zul ? omgosh
u're sooo geng !!
it was definitely shocking !
i believe he cried as well
8a's man ! cry of happiness =)

slowly slowly all da unexpected names being announced
i shock till words cant come out my mouth
i was really
speechless
wit hands keep clapping
im more dissapointed

farrah, zul, yun shin, chandira, avinash, cheryl peh, chai shi ying, najihah, lailatul, najwa, nik, hana ........
congratz to u all my classmates !
(sorry for some i didnt name out)

Everyone was being called earlier than me
i was happy :)
and upset at da same time :(
i dunno wats my feeling
im really confuse

Peh sit bside me ..
and her name was called
n i shouted so loud for her !
wooohooo ~

i got 6A 2B
im not happy at all
im so so upset
and maybe
i was the last name which was called out on da announcement

thanks to all who comforted me ..
mami, sis, jane, jane's mum, yi xin, yi xin's mum, pn noraini, azril's mum, balqis, allysa, balqish, kenny, bang syahdann ...
and other frens
thank you !
thnks.. u all said it is just pmr, spm only is da really important one..
pn noraini said to me, dont cry, dont sad, see u sad i also sad..
it was touching
thnk u all ...

i smile wit all of u wit tears
i was really really sad
all the consoling words reflect to me how concern u all is
i am happy tat u all concern bout me
i am happy u all ask bout me
yes i am
but not wit my results ...

I know,
its all my fault
i did not study hard enuf
i shudn't look down on anything
because anything is possible
sorry
im so sorry :(((

Congrats to all straight a's candidates
yun shin
cheryl peh
shi ying
yi xin
avinaash
chandira
pavitran
najihah
najwa
lailatul
zul
nik
syarfanis
fatin
fu seng
kuan chew
pei san
lih meei
shyan
dominic

well done !

God,
thru tis time,
i know wat msg u want to send to me
u ask me not to look down on weaks
u warn me not to behave like u can success,
but to really work out hard
and i know
u want me to be prepared muc muc earlier b4 every exams
u wan me to listen to advise,
not to behave so stubbornly
i get it !
im so sorry
im here to apologise ...
lord plz 4give me n giv me another chance
Amen



Today is not my day
A sadden me
YinG~21#

2010 pmr results

2010 PMR results is coming out TOMORROW !
fuhh ~
nervous + afraid
whether i will walk away wit laughter ?
or wit heads bow down ?

I will take my results wit a smily face
but after taking ..
i dunno wat expression i will have

Red light

I realize i cant stop thinkin of u
im missin' u deeper
i'll be afraid of any changes in u

sometimes when u're saying, but not from ur heart,
i feel it n started to be aware, nervous or afraid
these all i guess is bcause lack of trust
or mayb curious
or doubt

tis is not i wanted
tis is wat i wana get rid of
but now it really happens
i prefer the previous me
n i want it back !
i will try hard for it
and stop these all



Sweet dreams ~
YinG~21#

Its between us

Let's pray
I LOVE JB ! <3 style="COLOR: rgb(204,102,204)">u have the physical i ever wanted
u have the property i longed for
u have the humour i needed
u have the words i dreamed

when u n ur fren came in,
i chose u,
but not him
no reason
till now i still prefer u

basically u' re almost perfect
u' re da right tea in my cup
u have a really good life
i envy ur attractions and family
and i hope u will appreciate it

u brought me down,
when u reveal tat ur true love is only wit her
i understand
everyone likes her
even u, ur mum ..
yes, i always being behind HER

I know however hard i tried
i cant replace her in ur heart
same as i cant replace haziq's or even had a chance for HIM's

We know bout each other's
but still
we're GOOD
caring
sweet talks
accompany
we take away our loneliness
we had fun wit each other
but, is these all truely from da bottom of our hearts ?
is ur words true ?
its nice to hear, nice to say, but i dont think its true

wat will happen in da future ? it's still a doubt
whether we'll be better ?
or worst ?
how long can tis last ?
i hope we'll stay like this
as long as we can
it feels good
i hope i wouldnt thirst for more
which will ruin me

if we'll be even better, how good can we be ?
there's bound between us
we cant go any further
if im like u, i will
but im not, and i cant, even i want to
absolutely a no-no
:(

I cant forget da time we spent tgther
we smile, we apologise
i wont forget ur words
i will remember
the moment u hold my hands
giv me comfort
it was just like a dream,
a sweet dream,
tat u wished me almost every nite .....

I wrote these here
bcause


I mis u now
YinG~21#