Unfair

Its so unfair!
u threat ppl so unfair
u brainwash our brains wit ur power, ur kindness, ur knowledge...
u make us follow u
obey ur instructions

U often used da "strong" ones
n neglected da weak ones
n when da weak ones confronted u
u blame them 4 not doing their job
4 not helping u
n 4 do their jobs only when u asked 2 do so

weak ones acted lik tat bcuz they're not motivated
they're not given courage
on the other hand
strong ones get recognisation by u
n u asked them 2 do everything

U pay all attention on da strong ones
though weak ones stand just in front of u
they seems 2 be transparent in ur eyes
u will still finding strong ones
no matter where they are

when u need more helpers
then those weak ones were here 4 u
only then they will appear in ur eyes
just 4 a moment...

Think,
wat if strong ones were dissapear ?
wat would happen 2 u ?
dont u think u hav 2 train weak ones 2 be strong ones ?
2 back up whenever thr's a need

i noe u given alot 2 me
im thankful
but
i couldnt get rid of my fear 2 u
ur words were so mean 2 me
since then till now
ur words were still hurting me
n mayb u didnt realise dat...

I hope u wouldnt threat me lik tis in da future
if not my fear of u would be 4eva in me
n tis makes me be caution in front of u
n i wouldnt believe u


Thr's no fair in tis world
YinG~21#

Yes or Not??

lol..wy always ask me a question without the question..

"popo..u say yes or no?"

den i always thinked in my mind..

"huh??wad u asking"

but she always answered me..

"u just say yes or no la"

then i used to answer her with the answer that flash to my mind at the second..

actually i just simply answer her 1..xD

sorry cucu~!>.<

but now i'm the one keep thinking of this question..

Yes....or..No??

super contradict ryte~

hmph~

just now..mum received a call from a malay family..

they said want buy our house..

what a news~!!

it came in a sudden..

i have not prepare to hear this..

but i can see that mummy like suddenly feel reluctant to sell our house..

then she called pastor and have a long chat..she said she need to share and get some suggestions..maybe it would help her to make decision..

for me..

if we shift to BCH..i wouldnt have so much of schooling problems compare to sg buaya..ofcuz it's beneficial to me..

but maybe it's different to other family members le..

they all prefer to stay in sg buaya cuz we had been moved to here 10 yrs ago..

not a short period..suddenly said wanna shift..

ofcuz they'll feel reluctant to move..

haiz..i hope to shift..cuz i can no need to wake early in the morning to school dy.

but i also feel grudge to move..cuz this house..i've stay at here for up to 10 years..

i cant imagine if 1 day i have to adapt a new place..i have to sleep in a room that i never sleep b4 in my future..T^T..sure i miss my room now tat time!!!>.<

arh~!!!!hope God will help mummy n daddy to make the decision..

the best decision for all of us..Amen~><

SPY~~

Ur day

Time passes 12am..
ur bday had gone
u grown older by 1 year
hope u bcome more mature
n could make smart decision

U told me u like da present i gave u
u even phone me 2 express ur appreciation
i was glad 2 hear tat!
well i just buy da things i like
i hope da things i like would be da things tat u like too
hope u appreciate it
btw, its da 1st present i gave u, rite?

I see u again
n u had changed
i didnt see tis kind of outlook of u b4
u're physically diff,
wat about mentally?
hmm.. i wonder

I asked u ques
n u answer as just 2 answer my ques
u wun specific it
u didnt explain it
well, u had ur own reason...
I could hav lost idea in u
i wonder how u're up to, hm.....

Hey boy, say gudbye 2 ur bday!


YinG~21#

Im still Thinking

2day my papa n mami went to alor star, and thx to wen ying n rachel!

they accompanied me the almost for the whole day

me n wen ying successfully made our mushroom soup! it was the nicest, among every dishes we had made b4..

and just now, was chatting with ying, found that my situation is exactly same as hers

i felt relief and quite relax n happy when we came to a same opinion and topic

i was thinking hardly, should i really bring him into my life?

i didnt mean to hurt anyone, especially him

im worry, if next time i might be different, i might change,

how would it be to You?

anyway, i would really like to thank You

although i never showed it out, i appreciate you very much

u have changed, u tried a lot to make me happy, and just to see me smile

thanks a lot for that!

and im afraid, my feeling to you is just a kind of sympaty

i didnt mean that too, but it just flow according to my feeling, my wish

if lets say, one day, i get to know that, u have fallen in love to somebody but not me

i think i might feel sad, but still i will hope that both of you can stay happy without my interruption.

Ying, thx a lot too

sometimes, you have indirectly given me a lot

your family, yourself

although we may be have some quarrel or misunderstanding for certain time

yet i appreciate for ur contribution to me, as a small part of your life

Rachel, there are also a lot of 'thank you' have to be sent to ur ears from my heart

thank you to ur mami, ur family, and mainly you

you dont need to feel guilty for what u have done or wat decision you have made

i believe that, every human being will do mistake, or wrongly took decision

but once you have decided to do so, just continue it!

i know it must be a hurt to others,

but 'by law', u arent really did something wrong

from my deep heart core, i hope you will gain happiness for what are u doing right now

Manda, i have just read ur blog

ya, i admit that i used to blame you for not attending some of our event

yet, im the one who neglected you!

i didnt realize that you dont like such event when there are strangers there

i will try my best to fulfill ur demands

and sorry for my mistakes ok?

All the best to all of you ya!

i aint liking you all, but I LOVE YOU ALL!

*Jane23*

关于你

对我来说，
我们的感情如此深厚
但是对于你呢？是否与我有同样的想法？

虽然谈得来
玩得起
疯得过
但是，
有时候，
我却觉得很失望
不知是我想得太多，
还是过于在乎呢？

有时候，
我总是觉得你有隐瞒
那是你的权利，
我不该干涉。
我要向她学习，学习如何从中自拔

别小看你小小的脑袋
里面装着许多看不出来的东东
嘴里说不，心里则相反。
心里空虚，
我明白
难得的机会
谁会错过？
毕竟等了很久，对吧？

但是
每当这时候，
你会变得不是你
你改变了
你不再是从前那样的你
这些我都明白
都很正常
我尝试过，
经历过

总括而言
当局则迷，
旁观则清。
旁观者是不同意你，
不会像从前那样喜欢你
但是你有能如何？


YinG~21#

MidValley 20-10-2010

Ytd went mid wit frens
Jane, rachel, azril, nik, zul, aiman, fu seng, akmal, airene, afiq, balqish, pa'an n 1 more duno wat name.. =D
so big group rite?
whoa! 1st time go gai gai wit such a big gang....

We watched movie, walk around, buy stuff, mum mum, played game.....
we were separate
we watch diff movie, played diff game & ate diff food..
hehe

Hmm.. here i wana express my appreciation 2 my "penunjuk arah".. hahah
brought me here n there
n teach me alot of new things tim
bout ktm la, bus la, game la, n of cuz midvalley lor....
gain new knowledge frm him
especially "tips"
n new words
front deck - rear deck ?
kuliah
hahaha
quite surprise see him so smart n full of knowledge

Now
i un better bout midvalley concept xD
1st, centre n 3rd.. or a-round? hahah dunno lar
hmm.. u're gud in explaining wo
not bad ar

Its like a dream
tat u hav 2 wake up after 12 hours
[ I never felt somethg like tis
u making me open up
i kinda feels lik its loveeeee]
it's kissing u song lyrics
suddenly i thought of it =)

u let me make decision
till dunno wat 2 choose
u give way in everythg
n u accept everythg
sometimes its lik eherm
at certain part
certain place (especially toilet, i dunno y)
certain situation
well, it DEPENDS

Sometimes i feel really strange
wat a stranger could go out 2gether
though they didnt talk b4
weirdo
luckily tis didnt dissapoint me
fuh~

btw, thanks 4 his accompany n care da whole day
n didnt leave me sesat haha
tryin 2 comfort me when im not well
in an indifferent way
(he's weak on tat i guess)

Of cuz,
spent time 2gether sure gota know more bout each other la
if not how can
he's my "compass" ma... hahaha
got la..
knw quite alot... but of cuz not all
there's much more hiding behind
tat is kept secret... hmm..
I wonder wats dat....

Tis time really my 1st n new experience
how can i forget? oh no.. I wouldn't
it is really a new new one
it is diff
it is special
it is fun
but it is not goin 2 be
i didnt hope 4 it too... =p

Thankss again my friend! =D
YinG~21#

Appreciation 2010

Teacher is a brilliant job
teacher taught us alot...
however
it is not just teaching
it involve other aspects

Really thanks 2 all my teachers, in sch & in tuition as well
they taught me alot
especially da time when pmr was coming nearer n nearer
fear come by, confidence went away
but
teacher is da one who take all fear away
bring me confidence
they joked n console
they do their best n do everything they could 2 help
most important, they sacrificed!


Sir Peeter had many extra classes with us
revise wit us
hoping tat we will gain gud results

Sir v'das a good joker even in da last minute 2 make us relax
he gave us a short advice in da last class
n had seminar 4 pmr students
he helped alot

Sir selva did extra classes 4 us too
he's really great!
he was able 2 explain those syllabus tat sch's teacher couldnt
it was hard 2 do it but he could
n i can understand really well
hmm..
i couldnt describe how amazing it is!

Sir JC, SK, Rave..
thanks 2 all of them too!
im so touched by their sacrifices, hard work n faith...
im so proud of them
Thanks!

I hope i wouldnt dissapoint all of u
I wana prove tat ur hard work pays off
Hope thr's chance 2 meet u all again in da following year =)

Keep in touch sirss
miss u all xD


YinG~21#