LOST CONFIDENT LOST EVERYTHING!!

LOL LOL LOL~~
my medal is gone !!!!
hooh..
sorry my friends..
that i have make u all disapointed
i shouldn't loose..
but i was panic that time..
and it's true..lost confident , lost everything..
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today when i was stretching ..
my friend came along and talk to me..
she pointed at a girl from other school
and told me that the girl very good in sparing ..
at first , i dint feel anything cause i thought i wont meet her..
then i continue my stretching until competition going to start..
i prepare well myself..make sure everything is okay ..
then we have called by senior to know our opponent..
when the time senior told me my opponent..
i shock !!
i'm going to fight with the pro-girl!!!!!!!!!(the girl that i mention above)
OMG~!!!!!!!!!!
God really like to challenge me and i'm also easy tempted by satan..
at that moment..all of my confident has gone!!
i dint did well in my sparing..
the match just start , but i feel that all of my energy and ohm has gone..
i fade away~~
i'm so tired that time..i'm tired that i couldn't lift up my leg to kick her when i slide back...
it's the best chance..i missed it..
what the coach told me..non of it goes into my mind..i was blank that time..
again , i panic!!!!!!!!
what i train before i dint use it out..
what i know is just AVOID!!!!almost half of the match i'm avoiding from her kick!
and what's the worst i break the rules..
haiz..kena tolak markah..
haiz..fight til like..i'm half dying ler~~~
and very obviously , a fighter with this kind of performance..
the result will just .. ..loose!!haha...XD
i dint sad my fren, cause i know i was panic that time..
i just angry with myself..why am i so easy to get panic??
LOL...
maybe i can win if i dint lost my confident..
but i lost it!!!ish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what to do..it's already happen n gone..
still got next year!!!i hope i can meet that girl again..
i wish i could win her in the next match!!!haha
so frens..when we're in trouble..
dont avoid..but face it!!!!dont loose your confident!!!like me..
bad example!!XDhaha kay??
JYJY peh!!!^^...JYJY 37+one luvrhythm!!!

SPY~