haizz... y im always the 1?

recently, i juz feel to cry.......
with or without reason? i also not sure abt tat
juz feel like, y huh?? something good always ll change into bad 1
hmph~ ntg cAn suit me 4 long term
even as a fren also, others ll be better than me
tot wanna share something wit u
but once chat wit u, den kena di..
but ntg can be done, my fault perhaps..

u all r always the 1 get priority and focus
y i cant be like u all?
everything i get, juz ll be something like neglect, scold, n so on
hmm........ when im crying, im alone t0o
im always pretending to be a happy 1
cz if i show my real feeling,
ppl ll say tat im gaining simphaty from u
so, wat to do? ntg.... juz NTG

tot u can still remain being the 1 who r willing to share everything wit me
but, now... i hav to pretend in front of u
i dun like it, i dun wan
but i cant control wat reaction u g0nna give me
everything we talked abt, u forgoted..
but between others, u rmb it n keep repeating

im no longer important, or mb im actually not important at all from 1st
ya?? isit?? hmph~
watching a comedy ll be like watching a sad n crying movie
a red black cart0on ll occur more often than a laughing guy

pretending one.........

*SweetzJane23*
bubai